The topic or easily as the "mother of the last snow" more properly.
I only get along with her mother for two years and eight months in the fall for the third moved out. Youngest daughter left the house to marry. Separation of the time I said: whatever her parents to take away the things I have, all this family stuff, give me a do not give.
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I moved out after the sheep through the village house to live. The middle of the sheep house in the village on high ground. What is the sheep house? Sheep house happened? On the next time decomposition.
Here, I only said that her mother's last.
Her mother gave birth to four sons and four women, as more daughters than sons filial, so her mother or her daughter, who lives more time. But her mother two years ago, she left this world one day, made me the second son to find a pen and paper, said that she had something to remember.
Yong-Fang was only thirteen years old, honestly waiting for him holding a pencil, "Goddess" in mind. And his queen to remember what is it? She was originally called the family property inventory: This quilt bed in someone who, in the case who felt someone, make my son write in a book, and then settle down: to give this to your mother, so she drove to write on the handlebars things are back to your home, your mother did not corrupt my things.
Son come back and tell me, where I moved half stunned speechless. Harsh and hypocritical mother told me so much and that the evaluation of tolerance, true to smash the Guinness Book of records.
Soon to meet with her mother when we heard her rap: "You do not pull staggering!"
I told her I was now too well, the others have been. So those who do not have to pull everything.
Her mother dying, IV Hall large group of different generations are waiting at her front. Clearly remember slowly to falling snow outside it, then it is a white night.
Treated her to calm happy death, the Spring's sister, said: a box of pastries, this is the legacy of Mother, go back to the second sister.
I solemnly to her mother's bedside this box cake in his arms.
Late at night, I walked on the way home.
Moonless night is dark, swirling snow is white. I thought I saw my mother, she finally took a bone dry snow, to find her husband had died thirty years.
I heard deep in the world, age is not increased, the soul does not cry. Well, they met each other but also met it? And even know each other but not tears, what do they look for the emotional vicissitudes of the three years?
Saturday, October 23, 2010
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（六）
At that time women work in the fields, most of them are carrying baskets, rest the way home pick up some firewood to cook. Therefore, the wild beaches in the spring did not much wood can pick it up. I managed to retrieve a basket, cast iron skillet on the stove back to Westinghouse on the well. But just on fire, her mother came over, she will be the pot from the stove on a pull up.
Health and smoke roaring over Zaotang to emerge here.
I did not expect her to do so: "Oh, my pot Zuoshen you pull?" "You burn kang Zuoshen?" "I moved here to live." "Then hurry to move Zuoshen?" "Has been the spring, no you? "" My son is born, you think you married him, and he is yours? "" I lived in my house just to live, do not you grab your son. "" You said, you and I lived in, yo? "" House of Westinghouse to the East across a wall, and lived together different? "" even as you move? "
Her mother began to scold me, most of the local translation of the curse words than here. But there is a word very educated taste, which I can never forget: "I do not expect you to hit the grain millet seedlings!"
But I was wondering what culture can be in no mood for the taste, only that Westinghouse is impossible to live.
Element of surprise, my father suddenly Tuimenzoujin to fifty years --- so far, and my father how to enter the door to step out?
"... ... Dad, you coming? The house cold, to the east houses sit it." I quickly took my father to walk out, but my father is still wondering: Why is fires, the pan-side up?
Things are always so unlucky, in fact, I do not often come to her family, but the one just in time for our family to downtown is not pleasant. Several times from the morning walk to the half-brother, Houshang see me, how do I let him see me panic? Then immediately put on a smile. At a time when her mother would be to face, her smile is the same.
Health and smoke roaring over Zaotang to emerge here.
I did not expect her to do so: "Oh, my pot Zuoshen you pull?" "You burn kang Zuoshen?" "I moved here to live." "Then hurry to move Zuoshen?" "Has been the spring, no you? "" My son is born, you think you married him, and he is yours? "" I lived in my house just to live, do not you grab your son. "" You said, you and I lived in, yo? "" House of Westinghouse to the East across a wall, and lived together different? "" even as you move? "
Her mother began to scold me, most of the local translation of the curse words than here. But there is a word very educated taste, which I can never forget: "I do not expect you to hit the grain millet seedlings!"
But I was wondering what culture can be in no mood for the taste, only that Westinghouse is impossible to live.
Element of surprise, my father suddenly Tuimenzoujin to fifty years --- so far, and my father how to enter the door to step out?
"... ... Dad, you coming? The house cold, to the east houses sit it." I quickly took my father to walk out, but my father is still wondering: Why is fires, the pan-side up?
Things are always so unlucky, in fact, I do not often come to her family, but the one just in time for our family to downtown is not pleasant. Several times from the morning walk to the half-brother, Houshang see me, how do I let him see me panic? Then immediately put on a smile. At a time when her mother would be to face, her smile is the same.
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（五）
Zi Jun said: "I am my own ... ..." and me? I am my own?
The poor can not deny that time the poor from society as a whole, of course, Princeton is one year older than his third brother, the family of two daughters to marry a row would be more poor. In the winter, enough money to buy coal, mother to make: you have to move to East Princeton House, the whole family to live it.
Certainly agree. Thus, rice estates in the East do, house burning stove in the East. Westinghouse when the west wind blowing the whistle when the banners and I lived in East Princeton, clean up the house go.
A Tai Kang, a family of six. The window is hot kang, of course, the old lady was asleep, followed by Princeton youngest sister, then was Princeton's third brother (third brother, two years older than me), then that is just over the forest, Princeton, and I slept after the kang .
I have to get up in the night to urinate every day problems is very bad, when I crept again, always listening to the great movement, so I said he was very awkward for Princeton. Spring said: awkward what? Are all one family.
Moved in together we must always faced. Winter months, the ground did not farm work, the men filled out the club into the West family wandering around the village, but a woman is the household, washing pots and pans clean up the house sewing shoes new mahjong Shengna make bad end.
"Done stopping the village children go home." Third brother say about me.
Keeping Thinking about stopping by the old run out this is not a way, when ye are at home more. Her mother is still holding a glass of water, when my heart had a bad curse.
Warm spring, when it has not arrived yet, I wanted to pack up and move to Westinghouse. Burning stoves can not, absolutely no more sleeping in the cold kang. However, in the firewood stack firewood is running out in the spring thanks to the bellows to cook dumpling shell. Good husk burned, I use the aged husk Ma Lo in the fine soil screened out, then the small screen does not go pick out a grain of soil Kela one can light a fire to cook. This soil husk burning, the flames immediately stop the wind out of a box.
So I can not burn wood for free kang, they raised went to the wilderness outside to gather firewood baskets.
The poor can not deny that time the poor from society as a whole, of course, Princeton is one year older than his third brother, the family of two daughters to marry a row would be more poor. In the winter, enough money to buy coal, mother to make: you have to move to East Princeton House, the whole family to live it.
Certainly agree. Thus, rice estates in the East do, house burning stove in the East. Westinghouse when the west wind blowing the whistle when the banners and I lived in East Princeton, clean up the house go.
A Tai Kang, a family of six. The window is hot kang, of course, the old lady was asleep, followed by Princeton youngest sister, then was Princeton's third brother (third brother, two years older than me), then that is just over the forest, Princeton, and I slept after the kang .
I have to get up in the night to urinate every day problems is very bad, when I crept again, always listening to the great movement, so I said he was very awkward for Princeton. Spring said: awkward what? Are all one family.
Moved in together we must always faced. Winter months, the ground did not farm work, the men filled out the club into the West family wandering around the village, but a woman is the household, washing pots and pans clean up the house sewing shoes new mahjong Shengna make bad end.
"Done stopping the village children go home." Third brother say about me.
Keeping Thinking about stopping by the old run out this is not a way, when ye are at home more. Her mother is still holding a glass of water, when my heart had a bad curse.
Warm spring, when it has not arrived yet, I wanted to pack up and move to Westinghouse. Burning stoves can not, absolutely no more sleeping in the cold kang. However, in the firewood stack firewood is running out in the spring thanks to the bellows to cook dumpling shell. Good husk burned, I use the aged husk Ma Lo in the fine soil screened out, then the small screen does not go pick out a grain of soil Kela one can light a fire to cook. This soil husk burning, the flames immediately stop the wind out of a box.
So I can not burn wood for free kang, they raised went to the wilderness outside to gather firewood baskets.
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（四）
Very quiet house, no language is only the mind of dialogue exchanges, the son has to sit up and take over the job mother knelt to date. That scene, I still think of it all shocked soul.
Because of Princeton's commitment, as I have sympathy for her mother, brother and because several of filial piety by Princeton touched, just the first year of marriage, my mother's abuse did not top off your mouth, even one at all. Only tell what was to that she misinterpreted my intention. But she will tell me the contents of the transformed told Princeton. Princeton with me so noisy, so shot beat Princeton.
Before marriage, matchmaker is the case described Princeton's "do not smoke do not drink, a talk with the woman on the face, saw a young girl in front of a group to go around him, a young man miles can be good!"
So, what to him to change into what it is it? The death of his father it? If this argument inexplicable, that I meant it? If this argument to explain barrier that I put him "g" into the case. I am this "g", not have passed the process of iron hit're welcome to offset it?
Repetition is not used but will develop habits, habits are not natural but it will become natural. Spring may have forgotten that he had for me, and said to his mother "can not do this to her," he may now be too lazy to investigate "all right" the --- or in his subconscious, has been "feasible" the.
The same theory can also be applied to me, I will put all habit forming nature. Then, I will also conscious of the "No" to a "feasible."
Pen to that, I would like to quote one of today's buzzwords: poor people must have hated the place, my place to promote hateful Princeton into a poor me.
Princeton, I had said this to me if you know is wrong, I'm sorry I have a feeling heart, that I deserve; If you think everything is normal no big deal, I was killed unjustly.
Because of Princeton's commitment, as I have sympathy for her mother, brother and because several of filial piety by Princeton touched, just the first year of marriage, my mother's abuse did not top off your mouth, even one at all. Only tell what was to that she misinterpreted my intention. But she will tell me the contents of the transformed told Princeton. Princeton with me so noisy, so shot beat Princeton.
Before marriage, matchmaker is the case described Princeton's "do not smoke do not drink, a talk with the woman on the face, saw a young girl in front of a group to go around him, a young man miles can be good!"
So, what to him to change into what it is it? The death of his father it? If this argument inexplicable, that I meant it? If this argument to explain barrier that I put him "g" into the case. I am this "g", not have passed the process of iron hit're welcome to offset it?
Repetition is not used but will develop habits, habits are not natural but it will become natural. Spring may have forgotten that he had for me, and said to his mother "can not do this to her," he may now be too lazy to investigate "all right" the --- or in his subconscious, has been "feasible" the.
The same theory can also be applied to me, I will put all habit forming nature. Then, I will also conscious of the "No" to a "feasible."
Pen to that, I would like to quote one of today's buzzwords: poor people must have hated the place, my place to promote hateful Princeton into a poor me.
Princeton, I had said this to me if you know is wrong, I'm sorry I have a feeling heart, that I deserve; If you think everything is normal no big deal, I was killed unjustly.
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（三）
At that time I thought that not a sound, or else I should ask this're welcome: you was crushed after, you beneath my fate will be like?
Princeton, married less than two months since I had a head on hand, then in a short period of time, has happened twice, because the relationship between me and her mother.
Mother because she did not understand why no culture, I'm just her daughter, I have not intervened in their home distinctly past (my own past in her family), so I should not share the family history of any emotional debt. I only have to wait on her to eat ready meals, ready to listen to her words of obligation, and not to be confused disoriented she yelled. But the theory is to the actual mother, she will remind each child: This is your That is your, what is yours? Even you are mine!
The reason is justice. Even his son is her, then belonging to his son is her all to the. And so on, I was her.
Princeton's older brother because of me, and his mother argued over many times; Princeton's third brother has asked me: Yisow you listen to me, do not tell mom the hundred friends for a long time (talking), said many of her will call you. You all went to Westinghouse to stay, to stopping by to see the village, around noon, back to cooking on the line, you always do not listen!
I can not listen to third brother, because her mother she was not called me, she said to me heart. When she said the truth is very real very friendly, but anger is too fast, and said something to her suddenly touched a nerve, immediately scolded, when I run too late.
Indeed, although I scolded this difficult to accept, but I experienced the bitterness of her mother is still very sympathetic. Gang Lin and his sister went to the village to play, her mother a house window, sitting East, sewing large kang, stitched it will make a daze, it would be a long time motionless, and I know she places itself in the past gone.
Such a moment, in turn would hear her sing a few mountain got the right stuff.
"Yeah ... ... riding on horseback had a sheep, ah ... ... eat eat rice into a three rough chaff."
"Looking back a few years back ... ... like a lifetime ... ... did not live into personal appearance."
Mother not only curse, if you feel too sad, she will not eat lying on the kang. This Spring they are brothers and four to a mess, and then great things can be put aside, to give up her knees and begged her mother for dinner. I have seen four of them kneel down, uniform of the obedient, very penitent look, even the youngest brother just the same way forest. In this way they have been kneeling, kneeling silently reflect, reflect on the mother's life difficult burden, reflecting the mother from the age of forty, had been guarding the fresh flesh and blood into the dry bones buried with her father again --- really very cruel.
Big Brother turned our backs to, quietly suggesting that I go outside. I understand that he was afraid that her mother made to let me kneel.
I slipped out and stood at the window peeping.
Princeton, married less than two months since I had a head on hand, then in a short period of time, has happened twice, because the relationship between me and her mother.
Mother because she did not understand why no culture, I'm just her daughter, I have not intervened in their home distinctly past (my own past in her family), so I should not share the family history of any emotional debt. I only have to wait on her to eat ready meals, ready to listen to her words of obligation, and not to be confused disoriented she yelled. But the theory is to the actual mother, she will remind each child: This is your That is your, what is yours? Even you are mine!
The reason is justice. Even his son is her, then belonging to his son is her all to the. And so on, I was her.
Princeton's older brother because of me, and his mother argued over many times; Princeton's third brother has asked me: Yisow you listen to me, do not tell mom the hundred friends for a long time (talking), said many of her will call you. You all went to Westinghouse to stay, to stopping by to see the village, around noon, back to cooking on the line, you always do not listen!
I can not listen to third brother, because her mother she was not called me, she said to me heart. When she said the truth is very real very friendly, but anger is too fast, and said something to her suddenly touched a nerve, immediately scolded, when I run too late.
Indeed, although I scolded this difficult to accept, but I experienced the bitterness of her mother is still very sympathetic. Gang Lin and his sister went to the village to play, her mother a house window, sitting East, sewing large kang, stitched it will make a daze, it would be a long time motionless, and I know she places itself in the past gone.
Such a moment, in turn would hear her sing a few mountain got the right stuff.
"Yeah ... ... riding on horseback had a sheep, ah ... ... eat eat rice into a three rough chaff."
"Looking back a few years back ... ... like a lifetime ... ... did not live into personal appearance."
Mother not only curse, if you feel too sad, she will not eat lying on the kang. This Spring they are brothers and four to a mess, and then great things can be put aside, to give up her knees and begged her mother for dinner. I have seen four of them kneel down, uniform of the obedient, very penitent look, even the youngest brother just the same way forest. In this way they have been kneeling, kneeling silently reflect, reflect on the mother's life difficult burden, reflecting the mother from the age of forty, had been guarding the fresh flesh and blood into the dry bones buried with her father again --- really very cruel.
Big Brother turned our backs to, quietly suggesting that I go outside. I understand that he was afraid that her mother made to let me kneel.
I slipped out and stood at the window peeping.
Friday, October 22, 2010
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（二）
Day I washed clothes stacked in the burden of years (that time no closet), and Princeton, my mother came the clothes that actually mixed together, happy, and that men need to work out, the bad woman's pants with men's jacket side by side, they will punch grams of the men, after the men on the "can not afford to Yang" again!
Mother while Lenovo, said Princeton blind date with me before, once in her insistence BU had a diagram, and that fortune teller said that Princeton and married a woman of any other sign of the Zodiac are very good that they can not marry a woman with a tiger. Mr Gua at the time of his book to find a map on the fate of Princeton, has a hard bottom left graph eat pig, but there was a swoop down the top right of the tiger.
Tiger bird would flutter down after what this mouth pig? Fortune-teller mother answered: Yes you want, there will be any good?
But fate is fate, her mother so harsh, but also failed to reverse the tide, my pig or a tiger and Princeton, that share a column.
I listened to it inferiority complex: its really a killer, and to her family again Ke Ke-laws are enough.
Her mother then said, Princeton's disaster there, "Solutions to break" approach, the fortune teller who teach the way of.
Then in a night, my head a're welcome, Princeton his head a pan, presided over by the mother the two of us collided. This collision results do not guess: You're welcome to be my Spring wok "Barang" one hit to break.
I think I will not bring harm to give Princeton the bar.
Mother while Lenovo, said Princeton blind date with me before, once in her insistence BU had a diagram, and that fortune teller said that Princeton and married a woman of any other sign of the Zodiac are very good that they can not marry a woman with a tiger. Mr Gua at the time of his book to find a map on the fate of Princeton, has a hard bottom left graph eat pig, but there was a swoop down the top right of the tiger.
Tiger bird would flutter down after what this mouth pig? Fortune-teller mother answered: Yes you want, there will be any good?
But fate is fate, her mother so harsh, but also failed to reverse the tide, my pig or a tiger and Princeton, that share a column.
I listened to it inferiority complex: its really a killer, and to her family again Ke Ke-laws are enough.
Her mother then said, Princeton's disaster there, "Solutions to break" approach, the fortune teller who teach the way of.
Then in a night, my head a're welcome, Princeton his head a pan, presided over by the mother the two of us collided. This collision results do not guess: You're welcome to be my Spring wok "Barang" one hit to break.
I think I will not bring harm to give Princeton the bar.
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（一）
I was in Grade Two --- blind date during the summer vacation before the read Lu Xun's "Regret." I remember reading was "Lovers Destiny" after being found at school, studying it encounters it.
I read "Lovers Destiny" That would be serious to the sentence by sentence, until it moved to burst into tears. I am on the "Regret" feeling but only on Lu Xun's feeling that he was the man to write anything stiff stiff. Such as the description of people's character is the "arrogance has always been a bit --- but unfortunately no personal arrogance," as described "medicine" in the human blood bread ... ... but the "Regret" is a love story, ah, Juan Sheng and Zi Jun That is not love? How can turn it into a piece of the iron flat on it? So, I put "Regret" after a round fly, do not want to place a lot of puzzled, put down all right.
However, the sub-Jun sentence: "I am my own, none of them interfere with my rights!" Is deeply embedded in my memories. I guess, because this sentence with an exclamation point attached the reasons for it? Although I have not much read Lu Xun's article, but found he was too mean to use the punctuation.
Many years later, I suddenly go back and reread "Regret for the Past", was read the article, see Lu Xun was a pen with "winged child," the swan, which sings for love, never. But I still do not give serious pondering about Lu Xun Zi Jun phrase "I am my own ... ..."
Months passed, I have a little pot head and brain lesions grow. Forty years ago, after all, the rural areas, "kind of god" and a meal after all, not to write an article as a symbol to be wrong by one point. Such as the cut onions, and I put it, "Dangdang" three-four paragraphs of a cut, not cut flowers into the pan a few seconds to do.
During that time I tried to learn to cook, the results of the strengths is to do Geda Tang, commonly known as "mixed with soup." Because there are always some leftovers at noon, evening and cook points to make do with soup mix over. I do mix soup, and there is no uniform size lump of dry surface, so the pan will not sleepwalk. So far my daughter are all commendable, "Mom do this with rice, soup and Water's really good." Oh, vice meal Unfortunately, this is their main meal of the skills to do much more than I am strong.
When a life woman, I really can not compliment the cooking arts, especially to the guests, the meal I especially want to create good, so very tight so very hard. Mind the taste of food is always muttering, in the end is more or seasoning salt, less? But as the famous Chinese Randa, "the purpose of shaking" it, the harder the more I failed. Food served, guests had to sip while outright.
I read "Lovers Destiny" That would be serious to the sentence by sentence, until it moved to burst into tears. I am on the "Regret" feeling but only on Lu Xun's feeling that he was the man to write anything stiff stiff. Such as the description of people's character is the "arrogance has always been a bit --- but unfortunately no personal arrogance," as described "medicine" in the human blood bread ... ... but the "Regret" is a love story, ah, Juan Sheng and Zi Jun That is not love? How can turn it into a piece of the iron flat on it? So, I put "Regret" after a round fly, do not want to place a lot of puzzled, put down all right.
However, the sub-Jun sentence: "I am my own, none of them interfere with my rights!" Is deeply embedded in my memories. I guess, because this sentence with an exclamation point attached the reasons for it? Although I have not much read Lu Xun's article, but found he was too mean to use the punctuation.
Many years later, I suddenly go back and reread "Regret for the Past", was read the article, see Lu Xun was a pen with "winged child," the swan, which sings for love, never. But I still do not give serious pondering about Lu Xun Zi Jun phrase "I am my own ... ..."
Months passed, I have a little pot head and brain lesions grow. Forty years ago, after all, the rural areas, "kind of god" and a meal after all, not to write an article as a symbol to be wrong by one point. Such as the cut onions, and I put it, "Dangdang" three-four paragraphs of a cut, not cut flowers into the pan a few seconds to do.
During that time I tried to learn to cook, the results of the strengths is to do Geda Tang, commonly known as "mixed with soup." Because there are always some leftovers at noon, evening and cook points to make do with soup mix over. I do mix soup, and there is no uniform size lump of dry surface, so the pan will not sleepwalk. So far my daughter are all commendable, "Mom do this with rice, soup and Water's really good." Oh, vice meal Unfortunately, this is their main meal of the skills to do much more than I am strong.
When a life woman, I really can not compliment the cooking arts, especially to the guests, the meal I especially want to create good, so very tight so very hard. Mind the taste of food is always muttering, in the end is more or seasoning salt, less? But as the famous Chinese Randa, "the purpose of shaking" it, the harder the more I failed. Food served, guests had to sip while outright.
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