The topic or easily as the "mother of the last snow" more properly.
I only get along with her mother for two years and eight months in the fall for the third moved out. Youngest daughter left the house to marry. Separation of the time I said: whatever her parents to take away the things I have, all this family stuff, give me a do not give.
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I moved out after the sheep through the village house to live. The middle of the sheep house in the village on high ground. What is the sheep house? Sheep house happened? On the next time decomposition.
Here, I only said that her mother's last.
Her mother gave birth to four sons and four women, as more daughters than sons filial, so her mother or her daughter, who lives more time. But her mother two years ago, she left this world one day, made me the second son to find a pen and paper, said that she had something to remember.
Yong-Fang was only thirteen years old, honestly waiting for him holding a pencil, "Goddess" in mind. And his queen to remember what is it? She was originally called the family property inventory: This quilt bed in someone who, in the case who felt someone, make my son write in a book, and then settle down: to give this to your mother, so she drove to write on the handlebars things are back to your home, your mother did not corrupt my things.
Son come back and tell me, where I moved half stunned speechless. Harsh and hypocritical mother told me so much and that the evaluation of tolerance, true to smash the Guinness Book of records.
Soon to meet with her mother when we heard her rap: "You do not pull staggering!"
I told her I was now too well, the others have been. So those who do not have to pull everything.
Her mother dying, IV Hall large group of different generations are waiting at her front. Clearly remember slowly to falling snow outside it, then it is a white night.
Treated her to calm happy death, the Spring's sister, said: a box of pastries, this is the legacy of Mother, go back to the second sister.
I solemnly to her mother's bedside this box cake in his arms.
Late at night, I walked on the way home.
Moonless night is dark, swirling snow is white. I thought I saw my mother, she finally took a bone dry snow, to find her husband had died thirty years.
I heard deep in the world, age is not increased, the soul does not cry. Well, they met each other but also met it? And even know each other but not tears, what do they look for the emotional vicissitudes of the three years?
Saturday, October 23, 2010
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（六）
At that time women work in the fields, most of them are carrying baskets, rest the way home pick up some firewood to cook. Therefore, the wild beaches in the spring did not much wood can pick it up. I managed to retrieve a basket, cast iron skillet on the stove back to Westinghouse on the well. But just on fire, her mother came over, she will be the pot from the stove on a pull up.
Health and smoke roaring over Zaotang to emerge here.
I did not expect her to do so: "Oh, my pot Zuoshen you pull?" "You burn kang Zuoshen?" "I moved here to live." "Then hurry to move Zuoshen?" "Has been the spring, no you? "" My son is born, you think you married him, and he is yours? "" I lived in my house just to live, do not you grab your son. "" You said, you and I lived in, yo? "" House of Westinghouse to the East across a wall, and lived together different? "" even as you move? "
Her mother began to scold me, most of the local translation of the curse words than here. But there is a word very educated taste, which I can never forget: "I do not expect you to hit the grain millet seedlings!"
But I was wondering what culture can be in no mood for the taste, only that Westinghouse is impossible to live.
Element of surprise, my father suddenly Tuimenzoujin to fifty years --- so far, and my father how to enter the door to step out?
"... ... Dad, you coming? The house cold, to the east houses sit it." I quickly took my father to walk out, but my father is still wondering: Why is fires, the pan-side up?
Things are always so unlucky, in fact, I do not often come to her family, but the one just in time for our family to downtown is not pleasant. Several times from the morning walk to the half-brother, Houshang see me, how do I let him see me panic? Then immediately put on a smile. At a time when her mother would be to face, her smile is the same.
Health and smoke roaring over Zaotang to emerge here.
I did not expect her to do so: "Oh, my pot Zuoshen you pull?" "You burn kang Zuoshen?" "I moved here to live." "Then hurry to move Zuoshen?" "Has been the spring, no you? "" My son is born, you think you married him, and he is yours? "" I lived in my house just to live, do not you grab your son. "" You said, you and I lived in, yo? "" House of Westinghouse to the East across a wall, and lived together different? "" even as you move? "
Her mother began to scold me, most of the local translation of the curse words than here. But there is a word very educated taste, which I can never forget: "I do not expect you to hit the grain millet seedlings!"
But I was wondering what culture can be in no mood for the taste, only that Westinghouse is impossible to live.
Element of surprise, my father suddenly Tuimenzoujin to fifty years --- so far, and my father how to enter the door to step out?
"... ... Dad, you coming? The house cold, to the east houses sit it." I quickly took my father to walk out, but my father is still wondering: Why is fires, the pan-side up?
Things are always so unlucky, in fact, I do not often come to her family, but the one just in time for our family to downtown is not pleasant. Several times from the morning walk to the half-brother, Houshang see me, how do I let him see me panic? Then immediately put on a smile. At a time when her mother would be to face, her smile is the same.
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（五）
Zi Jun said: "I am my own ... ..." and me? I am my own?
The poor can not deny that time the poor from society as a whole, of course, Princeton is one year older than his third brother, the family of two daughters to marry a row would be more poor. In the winter, enough money to buy coal, mother to make: you have to move to East Princeton House, the whole family to live it.
Certainly agree. Thus, rice estates in the East do, house burning stove in the East. Westinghouse when the west wind blowing the whistle when the banners and I lived in East Princeton, clean up the house go.
A Tai Kang, a family of six. The window is hot kang, of course, the old lady was asleep, followed by Princeton youngest sister, then was Princeton's third brother (third brother, two years older than me), then that is just over the forest, Princeton, and I slept after the kang .
I have to get up in the night to urinate every day problems is very bad, when I crept again, always listening to the great movement, so I said he was very awkward for Princeton. Spring said: awkward what? Are all one family.
Moved in together we must always faced. Winter months, the ground did not farm work, the men filled out the club into the West family wandering around the village, but a woman is the household, washing pots and pans clean up the house sewing shoes new mahjong Shengna make bad end.
"Done stopping the village children go home." Third brother say about me.
Keeping Thinking about stopping by the old run out this is not a way, when ye are at home more. Her mother is still holding a glass of water, when my heart had a bad curse.
Warm spring, when it has not arrived yet, I wanted to pack up and move to Westinghouse. Burning stoves can not, absolutely no more sleeping in the cold kang. However, in the firewood stack firewood is running out in the spring thanks to the bellows to cook dumpling shell. Good husk burned, I use the aged husk Ma Lo in the fine soil screened out, then the small screen does not go pick out a grain of soil Kela one can light a fire to cook. This soil husk burning, the flames immediately stop the wind out of a box.
So I can not burn wood for free kang, they raised went to the wilderness outside to gather firewood baskets.
The poor can not deny that time the poor from society as a whole, of course, Princeton is one year older than his third brother, the family of two daughters to marry a row would be more poor. In the winter, enough money to buy coal, mother to make: you have to move to East Princeton House, the whole family to live it.
Certainly agree. Thus, rice estates in the East do, house burning stove in the East. Westinghouse when the west wind blowing the whistle when the banners and I lived in East Princeton, clean up the house go.
A Tai Kang, a family of six. The window is hot kang, of course, the old lady was asleep, followed by Princeton youngest sister, then was Princeton's third brother (third brother, two years older than me), then that is just over the forest, Princeton, and I slept after the kang .
I have to get up in the night to urinate every day problems is very bad, when I crept again, always listening to the great movement, so I said he was very awkward for Princeton. Spring said: awkward what? Are all one family.
Moved in together we must always faced. Winter months, the ground did not farm work, the men filled out the club into the West family wandering around the village, but a woman is the household, washing pots and pans clean up the house sewing shoes new mahjong Shengna make bad end.
"Done stopping the village children go home." Third brother say about me.
Keeping Thinking about stopping by the old run out this is not a way, when ye are at home more. Her mother is still holding a glass of water, when my heart had a bad curse.
Warm spring, when it has not arrived yet, I wanted to pack up and move to Westinghouse. Burning stoves can not, absolutely no more sleeping in the cold kang. However, in the firewood stack firewood is running out in the spring thanks to the bellows to cook dumpling shell. Good husk burned, I use the aged husk Ma Lo in the fine soil screened out, then the small screen does not go pick out a grain of soil Kela one can light a fire to cook. This soil husk burning, the flames immediately stop the wind out of a box.
So I can not burn wood for free kang, they raised went to the wilderness outside to gather firewood baskets.
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（四）
Very quiet house, no language is only the mind of dialogue exchanges, the son has to sit up and take over the job mother knelt to date. That scene, I still think of it all shocked soul.
Because of Princeton's commitment, as I have sympathy for her mother, brother and because several of filial piety by Princeton touched, just the first year of marriage, my mother's abuse did not top off your mouth, even one at all. Only tell what was to that she misinterpreted my intention. But she will tell me the contents of the transformed told Princeton. Princeton with me so noisy, so shot beat Princeton.
Before marriage, matchmaker is the case described Princeton's "do not smoke do not drink, a talk with the woman on the face, saw a young girl in front of a group to go around him, a young man miles can be good!"
So, what to him to change into what it is it? The death of his father it? If this argument inexplicable, that I meant it? If this argument to explain barrier that I put him "g" into the case. I am this "g", not have passed the process of iron hit're welcome to offset it?
Repetition is not used but will develop habits, habits are not natural but it will become natural. Spring may have forgotten that he had for me, and said to his mother "can not do this to her," he may now be too lazy to investigate "all right" the --- or in his subconscious, has been "feasible" the.
The same theory can also be applied to me, I will put all habit forming nature. Then, I will also conscious of the "No" to a "feasible."
Pen to that, I would like to quote one of today's buzzwords: poor people must have hated the place, my place to promote hateful Princeton into a poor me.
Princeton, I had said this to me if you know is wrong, I'm sorry I have a feeling heart, that I deserve; If you think everything is normal no big deal, I was killed unjustly.
Because of Princeton's commitment, as I have sympathy for her mother, brother and because several of filial piety by Princeton touched, just the first year of marriage, my mother's abuse did not top off your mouth, even one at all. Only tell what was to that she misinterpreted my intention. But she will tell me the contents of the transformed told Princeton. Princeton with me so noisy, so shot beat Princeton.
Before marriage, matchmaker is the case described Princeton's "do not smoke do not drink, a talk with the woman on the face, saw a young girl in front of a group to go around him, a young man miles can be good!"
So, what to him to change into what it is it? The death of his father it? If this argument inexplicable, that I meant it? If this argument to explain barrier that I put him "g" into the case. I am this "g", not have passed the process of iron hit're welcome to offset it?
Repetition is not used but will develop habits, habits are not natural but it will become natural. Spring may have forgotten that he had for me, and said to his mother "can not do this to her," he may now be too lazy to investigate "all right" the --- or in his subconscious, has been "feasible" the.
The same theory can also be applied to me, I will put all habit forming nature. Then, I will also conscious of the "No" to a "feasible."
Pen to that, I would like to quote one of today's buzzwords: poor people must have hated the place, my place to promote hateful Princeton into a poor me.
Princeton, I had said this to me if you know is wrong, I'm sorry I have a feeling heart, that I deserve; If you think everything is normal no big deal, I was killed unjustly.
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（三）
At that time I thought that not a sound, or else I should ask this're welcome: you was crushed after, you beneath my fate will be like?
Princeton, married less than two months since I had a head on hand, then in a short period of time, has happened twice, because the relationship between me and her mother.
Mother because she did not understand why no culture, I'm just her daughter, I have not intervened in their home distinctly past (my own past in her family), so I should not share the family history of any emotional debt. I only have to wait on her to eat ready meals, ready to listen to her words of obligation, and not to be confused disoriented she yelled. But the theory is to the actual mother, she will remind each child: This is your That is your, what is yours? Even you are mine!
The reason is justice. Even his son is her, then belonging to his son is her all to the. And so on, I was her.
Princeton's older brother because of me, and his mother argued over many times; Princeton's third brother has asked me: Yisow you listen to me, do not tell mom the hundred friends for a long time (talking), said many of her will call you. You all went to Westinghouse to stay, to stopping by to see the village, around noon, back to cooking on the line, you always do not listen!
I can not listen to third brother, because her mother she was not called me, she said to me heart. When she said the truth is very real very friendly, but anger is too fast, and said something to her suddenly touched a nerve, immediately scolded, when I run too late.
Indeed, although I scolded this difficult to accept, but I experienced the bitterness of her mother is still very sympathetic. Gang Lin and his sister went to the village to play, her mother a house window, sitting East, sewing large kang, stitched it will make a daze, it would be a long time motionless, and I know she places itself in the past gone.
Such a moment, in turn would hear her sing a few mountain got the right stuff.
"Yeah ... ... riding on horseback had a sheep, ah ... ... eat eat rice into a three rough chaff."
"Looking back a few years back ... ... like a lifetime ... ... did not live into personal appearance."
Mother not only curse, if you feel too sad, she will not eat lying on the kang. This Spring they are brothers and four to a mess, and then great things can be put aside, to give up her knees and begged her mother for dinner. I have seen four of them kneel down, uniform of the obedient, very penitent look, even the youngest brother just the same way forest. In this way they have been kneeling, kneeling silently reflect, reflect on the mother's life difficult burden, reflecting the mother from the age of forty, had been guarding the fresh flesh and blood into the dry bones buried with her father again --- really very cruel.
Big Brother turned our backs to, quietly suggesting that I go outside. I understand that he was afraid that her mother made to let me kneel.
I slipped out and stood at the window peeping.
Princeton, married less than two months since I had a head on hand, then in a short period of time, has happened twice, because the relationship between me and her mother.
Mother because she did not understand why no culture, I'm just her daughter, I have not intervened in their home distinctly past (my own past in her family), so I should not share the family history of any emotional debt. I only have to wait on her to eat ready meals, ready to listen to her words of obligation, and not to be confused disoriented she yelled. But the theory is to the actual mother, she will remind each child: This is your That is your, what is yours? Even you are mine!
The reason is justice. Even his son is her, then belonging to his son is her all to the. And so on, I was her.
Princeton's older brother because of me, and his mother argued over many times; Princeton's third brother has asked me: Yisow you listen to me, do not tell mom the hundred friends for a long time (talking), said many of her will call you. You all went to Westinghouse to stay, to stopping by to see the village, around noon, back to cooking on the line, you always do not listen!
I can not listen to third brother, because her mother she was not called me, she said to me heart. When she said the truth is very real very friendly, but anger is too fast, and said something to her suddenly touched a nerve, immediately scolded, when I run too late.
Indeed, although I scolded this difficult to accept, but I experienced the bitterness of her mother is still very sympathetic. Gang Lin and his sister went to the village to play, her mother a house window, sitting East, sewing large kang, stitched it will make a daze, it would be a long time motionless, and I know she places itself in the past gone.
Such a moment, in turn would hear her sing a few mountain got the right stuff.
"Yeah ... ... riding on horseback had a sheep, ah ... ... eat eat rice into a three rough chaff."
"Looking back a few years back ... ... like a lifetime ... ... did not live into personal appearance."
Mother not only curse, if you feel too sad, she will not eat lying on the kang. This Spring they are brothers and four to a mess, and then great things can be put aside, to give up her knees and begged her mother for dinner. I have seen four of them kneel down, uniform of the obedient, very penitent look, even the youngest brother just the same way forest. In this way they have been kneeling, kneeling silently reflect, reflect on the mother's life difficult burden, reflecting the mother from the age of forty, had been guarding the fresh flesh and blood into the dry bones buried with her father again --- really very cruel.
Big Brother turned our backs to, quietly suggesting that I go outside. I understand that he was afraid that her mother made to let me kneel.
I slipped out and stood at the window peeping.
Friday, October 22, 2010
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（二）
Day I washed clothes stacked in the burden of years (that time no closet), and Princeton, my mother came the clothes that actually mixed together, happy, and that men need to work out, the bad woman's pants with men's jacket side by side, they will punch grams of the men, after the men on the "can not afford to Yang" again!
Mother while Lenovo, said Princeton blind date with me before, once in her insistence BU had a diagram, and that fortune teller said that Princeton and married a woman of any other sign of the Zodiac are very good that they can not marry a woman with a tiger. Mr Gua at the time of his book to find a map on the fate of Princeton, has a hard bottom left graph eat pig, but there was a swoop down the top right of the tiger.
Tiger bird would flutter down after what this mouth pig? Fortune-teller mother answered: Yes you want, there will be any good?
But fate is fate, her mother so harsh, but also failed to reverse the tide, my pig or a tiger and Princeton, that share a column.
I listened to it inferiority complex: its really a killer, and to her family again Ke Ke-laws are enough.
Her mother then said, Princeton's disaster there, "Solutions to break" approach, the fortune teller who teach the way of.
Then in a night, my head a're welcome, Princeton his head a pan, presided over by the mother the two of us collided. This collision results do not guess: You're welcome to be my Spring wok "Barang" one hit to break.
I think I will not bring harm to give Princeton the bar.
Mother while Lenovo, said Princeton blind date with me before, once in her insistence BU had a diagram, and that fortune teller said that Princeton and married a woman of any other sign of the Zodiac are very good that they can not marry a woman with a tiger. Mr Gua at the time of his book to find a map on the fate of Princeton, has a hard bottom left graph eat pig, but there was a swoop down the top right of the tiger.
Tiger bird would flutter down after what this mouth pig? Fortune-teller mother answered: Yes you want, there will be any good?
But fate is fate, her mother so harsh, but also failed to reverse the tide, my pig or a tiger and Princeton, that share a column.
I listened to it inferiority complex: its really a killer, and to her family again Ke Ke-laws are enough.
Her mother then said, Princeton's disaster there, "Solutions to break" approach, the fortune teller who teach the way of.
Then in a night, my head a're welcome, Princeton his head a pan, presided over by the mother the two of us collided. This collision results do not guess: You're welcome to be my Spring wok "Barang" one hit to break.
I think I will not bring harm to give Princeton the bar.
In fact, I read Lu Xun's "Regret"（一）
I was in Grade Two --- blind date during the summer vacation before the read Lu Xun's "Regret." I remember reading was "Lovers Destiny" after being found at school, studying it encounters it.
I read "Lovers Destiny" That would be serious to the sentence by sentence, until it moved to burst into tears. I am on the "Regret" feeling but only on Lu Xun's feeling that he was the man to write anything stiff stiff. Such as the description of people's character is the "arrogance has always been a bit --- but unfortunately no personal arrogance," as described "medicine" in the human blood bread ... ... but the "Regret" is a love story, ah, Juan Sheng and Zi Jun That is not love? How can turn it into a piece of the iron flat on it? So, I put "Regret" after a round fly, do not want to place a lot of puzzled, put down all right.
However, the sub-Jun sentence: "I am my own, none of them interfere with my rights!" Is deeply embedded in my memories. I guess, because this sentence with an exclamation point attached the reasons for it? Although I have not much read Lu Xun's article, but found he was too mean to use the punctuation.
Many years later, I suddenly go back and reread "Regret for the Past", was read the article, see Lu Xun was a pen with "winged child," the swan, which sings for love, never. But I still do not give serious pondering about Lu Xun Zi Jun phrase "I am my own ... ..."
Months passed, I have a little pot head and brain lesions grow. Forty years ago, after all, the rural areas, "kind of god" and a meal after all, not to write an article as a symbol to be wrong by one point. Such as the cut onions, and I put it, "Dangdang" three-four paragraphs of a cut, not cut flowers into the pan a few seconds to do.
During that time I tried to learn to cook, the results of the strengths is to do Geda Tang, commonly known as "mixed with soup." Because there are always some leftovers at noon, evening and cook points to make do with soup mix over. I do mix soup, and there is no uniform size lump of dry surface, so the pan will not sleepwalk. So far my daughter are all commendable, "Mom do this with rice, soup and Water's really good." Oh, vice meal Unfortunately, this is their main meal of the skills to do much more than I am strong.
When a life woman, I really can not compliment the cooking arts, especially to the guests, the meal I especially want to create good, so very tight so very hard. Mind the taste of food is always muttering, in the end is more or seasoning salt, less? But as the famous Chinese Randa, "the purpose of shaking" it, the harder the more I failed. Food served, guests had to sip while outright.
I read "Lovers Destiny" That would be serious to the sentence by sentence, until it moved to burst into tears. I am on the "Regret" feeling but only on Lu Xun's feeling that he was the man to write anything stiff stiff. Such as the description of people's character is the "arrogance has always been a bit --- but unfortunately no personal arrogance," as described "medicine" in the human blood bread ... ... but the "Regret" is a love story, ah, Juan Sheng and Zi Jun That is not love? How can turn it into a piece of the iron flat on it? So, I put "Regret" after a round fly, do not want to place a lot of puzzled, put down all right.
However, the sub-Jun sentence: "I am my own, none of them interfere with my rights!" Is deeply embedded in my memories. I guess, because this sentence with an exclamation point attached the reasons for it? Although I have not much read Lu Xun's article, but found he was too mean to use the punctuation.
Many years later, I suddenly go back and reread "Regret for the Past", was read the article, see Lu Xun was a pen with "winged child," the swan, which sings for love, never. But I still do not give serious pondering about Lu Xun Zi Jun phrase "I am my own ... ..."
Months passed, I have a little pot head and brain lesions grow. Forty years ago, after all, the rural areas, "kind of god" and a meal after all, not to write an article as a symbol to be wrong by one point. Such as the cut onions, and I put it, "Dangdang" three-four paragraphs of a cut, not cut flowers into the pan a few seconds to do.
During that time I tried to learn to cook, the results of the strengths is to do Geda Tang, commonly known as "mixed with soup." Because there are always some leftovers at noon, evening and cook points to make do with soup mix over. I do mix soup, and there is no uniform size lump of dry surface, so the pan will not sleepwalk. So far my daughter are all commendable, "Mom do this with rice, soup and Water's really good." Oh, vice meal Unfortunately, this is their main meal of the skills to do much more than I am strong.
When a life woman, I really can not compliment the cooking arts, especially to the guests, the meal I especially want to create good, so very tight so very hard. Mind the taste of food is always muttering, in the end is more or seasoning salt, less? But as the famous Chinese Randa, "the purpose of shaking" it, the harder the more I failed. Food served, guests had to sip while outright.
Beyond redemption directly to extremes meet（三）
Spring came to ask the powerful: you big home?
At that time the country's children, said his father as "big."
"I'm great at home." Side of the powerful side of the force, waving his arm to answer.
"Who else at home?" "And my mother."
Spring in the middle of a sudden questioning surprised, because he saw the powerful hand that "treasure", there are particular words that are familiar with --- not familiar with my writing, in the folding of the Department show "fat dead cattle" and "farmers son" words.
"I look at your 'treasure'." Since the child's eager hands of Princeton, get a hand but was refused.
"This treasure is the cardboard to get the best off the miles!" Strong feel that their "treasure" is very general, has said his trouser pockets to the east of Tibet.
"Look, I want to see? Where did you get the paper?" Princeton exaggeration.
"From my house to get the red cabinet lying. I said no use large, are copied inside the poem. I stole it off the 'treasure'." Powerful contented.
It is obvious that money two diary to take home later, not censorship, that is the poem roughly doubled, to readily thrown into the cupboard, and the results of his son treasure.
Princeton did not dare to insist with the strong, and he feared the money suddenly come out to see the second, but will it poke exposed, such results have been lucky enough to home.
"I did not expect to nothing!" Princeton, all over his face smile.
A life-threatening scare passed. After this happened, the family's affection will increase a length scale.
For the "treasure" things to do, have a family similar adventure.
Or that year. Spring Forest youngest brother was just nine years old, he specifically naughty, trouble, often to the house, the villagers gave him the nickname "trouble ge tube" --- Ge tube, tube type therein, (eg chimney) of collectively.
Naughty children are always rack their brains to find the content of horn Garak, so it will bring unexpected results. Gang Lin of the trouble created by the scourge of parents, at least according to the political campaigns will provide crime.
Drill into the cool forest one day just a few of the old house turned out to have presentation of a "treasure", stuffed in pockets filled with four, ran out of the gamble on winning or losing.
A large group of children the most Qijin Er noisy fan when one suddenly found just on the Po Lin, "Liu" in the name.
"Liu Shaoqi! Hey all you see, just written on the Po Lin Liu!" The child screamed.
At that time the country's children, said his father as "big."
"I'm great at home." Side of the powerful side of the force, waving his arm to answer.
"Who else at home?" "And my mother."
Spring in the middle of a sudden questioning surprised, because he saw the powerful hand that "treasure", there are particular words that are familiar with --- not familiar with my writing, in the folding of the Department show "fat dead cattle" and "farmers son" words.
"I look at your 'treasure'." Since the child's eager hands of Princeton, get a hand but was refused.
"This treasure is the cardboard to get the best off the miles!" Strong feel that their "treasure" is very general, has said his trouser pockets to the east of Tibet.
"Look, I want to see? Where did you get the paper?" Princeton exaggeration.
"From my house to get the red cabinet lying. I said no use large, are copied inside the poem. I stole it off the 'treasure'." Powerful contented.
It is obvious that money two diary to take home later, not censorship, that is the poem roughly doubled, to readily thrown into the cupboard, and the results of his son treasure.
Princeton did not dare to insist with the strong, and he feared the money suddenly come out to see the second, but will it poke exposed, such results have been lucky enough to home.
"I did not expect to nothing!" Princeton, all over his face smile.
A life-threatening scare passed. After this happened, the family's affection will increase a length scale.
For the "treasure" things to do, have a family similar adventure.
Or that year. Spring Forest youngest brother was just nine years old, he specifically naughty, trouble, often to the house, the villagers gave him the nickname "trouble ge tube" --- Ge tube, tube type therein, (eg chimney) of collectively.
Naughty children are always rack their brains to find the content of horn Garak, so it will bring unexpected results. Gang Lin of the trouble created by the scourge of parents, at least according to the political campaigns will provide crime.
Drill into the cool forest one day just a few of the old house turned out to have presentation of a "treasure", stuffed in pockets filled with four, ran out of the gamble on winning or losing.
A large group of children the most Qijin Er noisy fan when one suddenly found just on the Po Lin, "Liu" in the name.
"Liu Shaoqi! Hey all you see, just written on the Po Lin Liu!" The child screamed.
Beyond redemption directly to extremes meet（二）
"This is my own thing and hold less than on others ... ..." "I'm afraid to pursue my head? What kind of words you say? Now need to find a way, really want this, we ... ... "" Spring, this is absolutely not escape, who is also not for me. But my mom ... ... it can be supposed to? You promised me my pipe after the death of her parents ... ... "
My affairs in order.
Is not an exaggeration, it is better to not eating, engage in the era of struggle, even if you are genuine poor peasants, expressed support for the attitude of the class enemy, will also be labeled as the existing counter-revolutionary, and the existing counter-revolutionary thing to be shot too common. So, I should think of things.
Princeton, I was surprised not only calm, even I myself was surprised. Why was not here with fear of imminent death to? Later I would like to see is for this reason: one taken from the cliff that fatal step, he still has time to fear? For example, afraid of the dark night, and ghosts are not all the war years, what once in the extreme but do not care. So I thought, "lice do not bite much, much more to worry about outstanding loans," the saying goes, perhaps derived from here out, utter direct extremes meet.
And my pride just a moment that evening, I was like a cow would be killed, when coming to see human beings, speaking in knife and started crying. Princeton jealously hugged me, in dead or alive who does not speak in, imagine what would happen to the arrival of the disaster.
The next day, also came to know this brother, and when he stood in front of my face pale.
"We're not bad luck, right?" Big Brother has changed voice: "That's the diary ... ..."
Love did not speak a word of her mother. Princeton silent for a long time to say: "The money the second to take the lead, in fact, the quality of this man can ... ..."
"Biexia want! Quality management is now what's the use? Money he dares to take up this second coming? We can not find him. Maybe he has not found the contents of the house, but a reminder of a look. But we can not This dry, etc., or ... ... "Big Brother analysis.
"I went to visit it, when it is touched at the end. This is so dead, sitting at home!" Spring said: "The first who look at this book in the hands."
Princeton away. Big Brother did not come home, he personally made a meal of Gansu practices "line pulling faces" very hard to do. However, none of the heart to eat cooked food, a great mind to run this trip betting on the result of Princeton, on the.
Six miles round trip, Princeton, about a half hour on the back. He pushed the door before shouting: all right all right!
Originally, Princeton, the money went to the vicinity of two, standing there and wondering for a long time: in the end the two should not the money go? Second money went to say how are you?
Just money, the son of two powerful group of children are now in full swing at the fan, where the "treasure" (also called fan was shown, with hard pieces of paper folded into four, fans turn to win on the ground.)
My affairs in order.
Is not an exaggeration, it is better to not eating, engage in the era of struggle, even if you are genuine poor peasants, expressed support for the attitude of the class enemy, will also be labeled as the existing counter-revolutionary, and the existing counter-revolutionary thing to be shot too common. So, I should think of things.
Princeton, I was surprised not only calm, even I myself was surprised. Why was not here with fear of imminent death to? Later I would like to see is for this reason: one taken from the cliff that fatal step, he still has time to fear? For example, afraid of the dark night, and ghosts are not all the war years, what once in the extreme but do not care. So I thought, "lice do not bite much, much more to worry about outstanding loans," the saying goes, perhaps derived from here out, utter direct extremes meet.
And my pride just a moment that evening, I was like a cow would be killed, when coming to see human beings, speaking in knife and started crying. Princeton jealously hugged me, in dead or alive who does not speak in, imagine what would happen to the arrival of the disaster.
The next day, also came to know this brother, and when he stood in front of my face pale.
"We're not bad luck, right?" Big Brother has changed voice: "That's the diary ... ..."
Love did not speak a word of her mother. Princeton silent for a long time to say: "The money the second to take the lead, in fact, the quality of this man can ... ..."
"Biexia want! Quality management is now what's the use? Money he dares to take up this second coming? We can not find him. Maybe he has not found the contents of the house, but a reminder of a look. But we can not This dry, etc., or ... ... "Big Brother analysis.
"I went to visit it, when it is touched at the end. This is so dead, sitting at home!" Spring said: "The first who look at this book in the hands."
Princeton away. Big Brother did not come home, he personally made a meal of Gansu practices "line pulling faces" very hard to do. However, none of the heart to eat cooked food, a great mind to run this trip betting on the result of Princeton, on the.
Six miles round trip, Princeton, about a half hour on the back. He pushed the door before shouting: all right all right!
Originally, Princeton, the money went to the vicinity of two, standing there and wondering for a long time: in the end the two should not the money go? Second money went to say how are you?
Just money, the son of two powerful group of children are now in full swing at the fan, where the "treasure" (also called fan was shown, with hard pieces of paper folded into four, fans turn to win on the ground.)
Beyond redemption directly to extremes meet（一）
I have a day are not a diary.
Marriage to have heard his father's attitude of life insider said Princeton man, and later talked about Princeton's older brother gave me some old things of his father, married with the first festival I went to his father's grave Princeton, he memories of the narrative a lot. So I thought a lot of admiration and give birth to regret, and then write some more hard life lamented father worked hard, bleak dismal outcome --- that time I only write poetry poetry. Now I can remember a few of them: "What is hard what is lazy? Do not ask just ask tombs days. Afterlife if children do farm, manure is not farming cattle die!" And a dozen made the first of the Cultural Revolution many questions of poetry, also in that of the diary. Essays on the other are "spring water with the wind to the future posterior autumn leaves drift to ... ..." This little woman mood.
After all, young and naive I was thinking is simple: people are to survive, and the afterlife since done a farm child, then do not plow the dead cow manure, but also what to do? Survival of "health" word, that is, cattle farming pictograms on the ground. Look no cattle to till the fields now, and it is not just a knife dishes?
Wen Ya Wen Princeton's older brother is very talented, but the interpretation was good calligraphy paper work well, but character is too upright, and always to fight it, according to Li contests remains to be seen, so easy to offend people. And brother, and come with me but he alone can often get a team of "Reference News" (I'm now feeling that time to read this newspaper), strode come from the Village West Village, to allow I read.
Princeton's older brother has helped many of us, but a little thing, but I will never forget: When Big Brother knows I'm going to China and China siblings to walk more than fifty years to live her family, that is to find out from the cold room ray Ma said, how can walk that far? Ma sold into the money, the two take the shuttle bus go!
Big Brother does not know the time, I do live in her parents foot, not the first time.
Big Brother look at a particular day that the diary, I cherish that his father wrote several poems, sighed and said: what to write carefully saved it, people saw it over!
The results really out of this thing.
Mown wheat happened in that time to live her own parents. Princeton, suddenly came to pick me back, saying that the Red Guards to rebellion, to my cabinet turned a red lying upside down, what reaction did not find that the things put away the diary!
Click on the tightening of my heart, and felt the blood can not be passed smoothly, but in front of my mother's face did not say anything.
Train ride all the way, we are silent --- the best, not to mention public places. Walking on the road under the car I asked Princeton, you know I wrote in the diary anything? He said that he had sympathy for his father, also wrote the dissatisfaction of the Cultural Revolution. I said, I'll be pulled to the shot.
I may remark too quiet, he suddenly thrust back to staring at my face, half did not respond.
Marriage to have heard his father's attitude of life insider said Princeton man, and later talked about Princeton's older brother gave me some old things of his father, married with the first festival I went to his father's grave Princeton, he memories of the narrative a lot. So I thought a lot of admiration and give birth to regret, and then write some more hard life lamented father worked hard, bleak dismal outcome --- that time I only write poetry poetry. Now I can remember a few of them: "What is hard what is lazy? Do not ask just ask tombs days. Afterlife if children do farm, manure is not farming cattle die!" And a dozen made the first of the Cultural Revolution many questions of poetry, also in that of the diary. Essays on the other are "spring water with the wind to the future posterior autumn leaves drift to ... ..." This little woman mood.
After all, young and naive I was thinking is simple: people are to survive, and the afterlife since done a farm child, then do not plow the dead cow manure, but also what to do? Survival of "health" word, that is, cattle farming pictograms on the ground. Look no cattle to till the fields now, and it is not just a knife dishes?
Wen Ya Wen Princeton's older brother is very talented, but the interpretation was good calligraphy paper work well, but character is too upright, and always to fight it, according to Li contests remains to be seen, so easy to offend people. And brother, and come with me but he alone can often get a team of "Reference News" (I'm now feeling that time to read this newspaper), strode come from the Village West Village, to allow I read.
Princeton's older brother has helped many of us, but a little thing, but I will never forget: When Big Brother knows I'm going to China and China siblings to walk more than fifty years to live her family, that is to find out from the cold room ray Ma said, how can walk that far? Ma sold into the money, the two take the shuttle bus go!
Big Brother does not know the time, I do live in her parents foot, not the first time.
Big Brother look at a particular day that the diary, I cherish that his father wrote several poems, sighed and said: what to write carefully saved it, people saw it over!
The results really out of this thing.
Mown wheat happened in that time to live her own parents. Princeton, suddenly came to pick me back, saying that the Red Guards to rebellion, to my cabinet turned a red lying upside down, what reaction did not find that the things put away the diary!
Click on the tightening of my heart, and felt the blood can not be passed smoothly, but in front of my mother's face did not say anything.
Train ride all the way, we are silent --- the best, not to mention public places. Walking on the road under the car I asked Princeton, you know I wrote in the diary anything? He said that he had sympathy for his father, also wrote the dissatisfaction of the Cultural Revolution. I said, I'll be pulled to the shot.
I may remark too quiet, he suddenly thrust back to staring at my face, half did not respond.
Commitment to a causal parabolic（六）
Then the matchmaker to discuss: their house is too difficult, can only give two pieces of clothing: Gaozi leather jacket and corduroy pants, all right?
... ... Okay.
Now her mother flowers to her mother actually said to me two thousand dollars. I could not help interrupting: Mom, how can so many ah? Not to three hundred it?
You know very? We put money to your mother, she did not tell you? Her mother raised decibels.
I put down the chopsticks to go out, go to your room Ouqi.
Spring came after the meal: My mother is so to speak, you let her speak, which is even miles?
There even miles? My mom so greedy? Two thousand, and let people joke is dead!
Relatives still in front, half when you eat a meal and left, not even a little face to the mother to stay!
Well, me and my mother's face where to look?
Dialogue halted because of Princeton ran gave me a slap in the face.
I am stunned by this slap in the face. Wake up later ran, I let him play.
A row, he hit eight of my face.
I'm so stupid!
I thought not Zhuanguo Wan, the Princeton began to cry.
"Because so few words, I Zaneng hit you so heavy? I was doing it ... a nightmare ..." He tears: "I must keep up with a ghost, it must be ... ..."
I stroked his numb face, stare Princeton, tears in his wake a little bit: Well, he may really keep up with the ghost of the ... ...
Baotou phase we weep.
I am a bit stupid, it is necessary to get through practice theory. Then one day I suddenly enlightened on the matter: I have promised the Prince to his mother a good point, forcing his mother promised not to remarry, agreed to let his father's grave to become solitary graves. Well, my evil Princeton this fight, is his "to promise" and my "commitment" to honor the first time it?
This idea can be terrified me, I really frighten Princeton, to cash his word and so unpredictable, so, I would rather believe that he really keep up with the devil to keep up his spirits, and it felt much better.
... ... Okay.
Now her mother flowers to her mother actually said to me two thousand dollars. I could not help interrupting: Mom, how can so many ah? Not to three hundred it?
You know very? We put money to your mother, she did not tell you? Her mother raised decibels.
I put down the chopsticks to go out, go to your room Ouqi.
Spring came after the meal: My mother is so to speak, you let her speak, which is even miles?
There even miles? My mom so greedy? Two thousand, and let people joke is dead!
Relatives still in front, half when you eat a meal and left, not even a little face to the mother to stay!
Well, me and my mother's face where to look?
Dialogue halted because of Princeton ran gave me a slap in the face.
I am stunned by this slap in the face. Wake up later ran, I let him play.
A row, he hit eight of my face.
I'm so stupid!
I thought not Zhuanguo Wan, the Princeton began to cry.
"Because so few words, I Zaneng hit you so heavy? I was doing it ... a nightmare ..." He tears: "I must keep up with a ghost, it must be ... ..."
I stroked his numb face, stare Princeton, tears in his wake a little bit: Well, he may really keep up with the ghost of the ... ...
Baotou phase we weep.
I am a bit stupid, it is necessary to get through practice theory. Then one day I suddenly enlightened on the matter: I have promised the Prince to his mother a good point, forcing his mother promised not to remarry, agreed to let his father's grave to become solitary graves. Well, my evil Princeton this fight, is his "to promise" and my "commitment" to honor the first time it?
This idea can be terrified me, I really frighten Princeton, to cash his word and so unpredictable, so, I would rather believe that he really keep up with the devil to keep up his spirits, and it felt much better.
Commitment to a causal parabolic（五）
Her theory is correct, but I can not practice.
Call it a day back home, saw her mother sitting by the window on the kang, guarding the drinking water thermos bottle.
Mother sat at the window every day, the big brick bed, must not only abandon the thermos to drink water, she is also thinking along the boiled water quietly flows. My guess from the song she sang out of the mountains can be confirmed.
"Yeah ... ... riding on horseback had a sheep, ah ... ... eat eat rice into a three rough chaff."
"Looking back a few years back ... ... like a lifetime ... ... did not live into personal appearance."
So far, I never heard anyone sing this song a few mountains, so I judge that it was her mother's original.
Mountain song singing mother, the eyes are always looking out. I think she must look through the mist of years, in one scene in the swing of memory, and all the scene has her husband's presence.
Now it is like a fairy tale that the first lunar month on the 26th --- Princeton marry me home March to beat me that day.
A theory that; inspire men and women love the four of brain chemicals. They are phenylethylamine, dopamine, oxytocin, and maternal factors. People love each other for 1 year and a half to 3 years, these substances will be offset antibodies person.
And Princeton, but I just love the 47 days, this should be it has nothing to do with the antibody.
The reason is home to a distant relative, I see a good mother mean to entertain her, to do the oil pancakes fried yam (potato) --- This thread can be considered at that level in honor of the years. Meal on the table, in accordance with the practice of one side of me and sat kang edge Princeton, listening to her mother and relatives engaged in small talk while eating, her mother said, had no off days, to marry the second wife spent a thousand, more ... ...
My head suddenly big: OMG two thousand?
In accordance with the concept that the number of years, heard a hundred thousand than two thousand have now heard the halo. My mother has done to statistics, from engagement to marriage, even the grain belt to wear for my school tuition plus --- I also married with two pieces of clothing, but also a total of three hundred. Dad said, the village that several daughters get married, gave her parents to return a bike, but Princeton did not even father to the four items of clothing to you even if the.
Call it a day back home, saw her mother sitting by the window on the kang, guarding the drinking water thermos bottle.
Mother sat at the window every day, the big brick bed, must not only abandon the thermos to drink water, she is also thinking along the boiled water quietly flows. My guess from the song she sang out of the mountains can be confirmed.
"Yeah ... ... riding on horseback had a sheep, ah ... ... eat eat rice into a three rough chaff."
"Looking back a few years back ... ... like a lifetime ... ... did not live into personal appearance."
So far, I never heard anyone sing this song a few mountains, so I judge that it was her mother's original.
Mountain song singing mother, the eyes are always looking out. I think she must look through the mist of years, in one scene in the swing of memory, and all the scene has her husband's presence.
Now it is like a fairy tale that the first lunar month on the 26th --- Princeton marry me home March to beat me that day.
A theory that; inspire men and women love the four of brain chemicals. They are phenylethylamine, dopamine, oxytocin, and maternal factors. People love each other for 1 year and a half to 3 years, these substances will be offset antibodies person.
And Princeton, but I just love the 47 days, this should be it has nothing to do with the antibody.
The reason is home to a distant relative, I see a good mother mean to entertain her, to do the oil pancakes fried yam (potato) --- This thread can be considered at that level in honor of the years. Meal on the table, in accordance with the practice of one side of me and sat kang edge Princeton, listening to her mother and relatives engaged in small talk while eating, her mother said, had no off days, to marry the second wife spent a thousand, more ... ...
My head suddenly big: OMG two thousand?
In accordance with the concept that the number of years, heard a hundred thousand than two thousand have now heard the halo. My mother has done to statistics, from engagement to marriage, even the grain belt to wear for my school tuition plus --- I also married with two pieces of clothing, but also a total of three hundred. Dad said, the village that several daughters get married, gave her parents to return a bike, but Princeton did not even father to the four items of clothing to you even if the.
Commitment to a causal parabolic（四）
"If I were your wife, she can afford to put it down to get." Lady with chopsticks to stir up a spineless noodle, giving vent to her resentment.
Her mother is in fact ungrammatical phrase, because it first was incomplete. "If you ... ..." there should be back, "You either ... ..." fishes, but after a word, she did not speak out.
I really want to cry.
I took a day to provide firewood for cooking baskets, back door when he heard his mother said Princeton: You're not sitting on the brick bed waiting to eat you, do not always pick at reprove her. Now how can you treat her mother's daughter? Did not.
I was one of his "absolutely impossible" and moved: Princeton is to understand me, I put a little worth it.
I write to you need to explain one thing: her mother the same age with my mother, my mother do the housework so neat, from the need to intervene to help others, and how her mother could only sit on the kang, can not stoop down and help me do?
Front said, this father find their own impermanence, to the village leaving a guilty person, so when her mother was in the struggle to corporal punishment never made her one, but thunder, little rain to bluff a Fan trouble. The pain of losing his father's influence for the children, but it is doubly cherish the mother. Princeton's brothers and sisters accounting of: the mother's legs were sick people in the village know, so disease is said to occur now and can not work in the fields of the. Start up a fight will have to go to Princeton backs to make us believe this is true.
Since then, forty-year-old mother to guns and knives storage no longer participate in the labor, of course, in the home can not just come down to earth move to avoid being discovered. So my cooking then bad hand she could not help, can pick his nose vertical cross hypercritical.
The village people do not care about the attendance of the new wife of my landlord's daughter is also moderately tolerant. I live in three five year leave her family is not difficult. But once work in the fields would have to show the difference between the work points. Black than red-law wife, no matter how hard must also note a half fewer hours, they are eight, I and other landowners in the village woman seven and a half.
Remember, there are several at our village to commune revolutionary committee's leadership, they come directly to the ground and the women on the labor question is being put forward three questions are simple. I should be silent, but the view to see everyone face to face and no one say anything, and the captain is also very awkward way, to clear-cut answers. That several leaders on the spot to discuss and said let me do other things. But I was very clear: In my own family and her in-laws of the ingredients, what will not fall on my head. Sure enough, when they knew I was after the landlord's daughter, Shashi on the indifferent eyes.
I have a friend in the never married before, her index finger out into my nose once stressed: how do you not know it? Own enough black background, and then find more black in the end is why? Change the situation of women than men, more than one way, refers to the marriage!
Her mother is in fact ungrammatical phrase, because it first was incomplete. "If you ... ..." there should be back, "You either ... ..." fishes, but after a word, she did not speak out.
I really want to cry.
I took a day to provide firewood for cooking baskets, back door when he heard his mother said Princeton: You're not sitting on the brick bed waiting to eat you, do not always pick at reprove her. Now how can you treat her mother's daughter? Did not.
I was one of his "absolutely impossible" and moved: Princeton is to understand me, I put a little worth it.
I write to you need to explain one thing: her mother the same age with my mother, my mother do the housework so neat, from the need to intervene to help others, and how her mother could only sit on the kang, can not stoop down and help me do?
Front said, this father find their own impermanence, to the village leaving a guilty person, so when her mother was in the struggle to corporal punishment never made her one, but thunder, little rain to bluff a Fan trouble. The pain of losing his father's influence for the children, but it is doubly cherish the mother. Princeton's brothers and sisters accounting of: the mother's legs were sick people in the village know, so disease is said to occur now and can not work in the fields of the. Start up a fight will have to go to Princeton backs to make us believe this is true.
Since then, forty-year-old mother to guns and knives storage no longer participate in the labor, of course, in the home can not just come down to earth move to avoid being discovered. So my cooking then bad hand she could not help, can pick his nose vertical cross hypercritical.
The village people do not care about the attendance of the new wife of my landlord's daughter is also moderately tolerant. I live in three five year leave her family is not difficult. But once work in the fields would have to show the difference between the work points. Black than red-law wife, no matter how hard must also note a half fewer hours, they are eight, I and other landowners in the village woman seven and a half.
Remember, there are several at our village to commune revolutionary committee's leadership, they come directly to the ground and the women on the labor question is being put forward three questions are simple. I should be silent, but the view to see everyone face to face and no one say anything, and the captain is also very awkward way, to clear-cut answers. That several leaders on the spot to discuss and said let me do other things. But I was very clear: In my own family and her in-laws of the ingredients, what will not fall on my head. Sure enough, when they knew I was after the landlord's daughter, Shashi on the indifferent eyes.
I have a friend in the never married before, her index finger out into my nose once stressed: how do you not know it? Own enough black background, and then find more black in the end is why? Change the situation of women than men, more than one way, refers to the marriage!
Commitment to a causal parabolic（三）
So far I remember his expression and tone, all Heart respect, this respect will continue until the end of.
Twenty years later I have moved away from him, but one day in a magazine read: "Bambusa, Yiming Family feelings bamboo, bamboo Penglai, the Latin name" Bambusamultiplex (Lour.) Raeuschel ", I still think of Spring.
But what to do where I step, is the "must point to the filial piety my mother?" Is "certainly not forced to leave my mother remarry?" More is the "must not let my father's grave became a solitary graves?"
Those with a "certain" the question mark, are fierce in the years before the small drilled out from my brain, when I was impressed with promise.
Princeton, telling the truth, her mother scolded the children almost every day, and she gave me the feeling with my mother very different. Do not open easily curse my mother, when she was not happy either, and you seriously listen to reason or to staring silence.
Since just after the door soon, her mother will not bring disaster to my Mashui. I was her second daughter, married to my door, the big house wives have to live with her husband to another, so that time mainly because I get along with her mother.
In fact, her mother also left me with a lot of emotion, one of which get along, just two months, what would she have said to me, even privacy (I believe some things I know more than her children full) . But the more the narrative, is the song transferred deep memories of past events, from the year-old child bride made a start time, until her husband to find a short-sighted over the past few decades the changes were too heavy really twists and turns.
Mother without culture, but she has careful thought, she can put in a row within a decade one by one all the things described should be narrated, but not resting, end to end to sit there, say a cup of boiled water tired, dry cough soon be able to continue.
Mother in my mind, the water is the largest in memory of her life needs, other can be classified as secondary. If you forget to give her thermos add boiling water, when you plot against her her.
This peaceful coexistence did not last long, her mother began to blame me, first because I am a cook blind.
I do not see my mother where the responsibility is not taught me how to round the kitchen sink. Do not worry about her own housework, 三下五除二 would be finished, so who are considered to be more trouble to help, she was always busy, said: Let me get out to the side of the child to go!
This result led me to marry her husband's family after the cake baked in the pan, Pakistan saw a paste that is not turned over; the oil down in the pot, seeing the smoke is not cutting onions --- I do not know how to put a onions first, then cut down the middle Zhancheng paragraphs. So even though it is only thin fingers, arms so long, I am also a knife a knife from start to finish to come.
I learned a lot of idioms, so I know a synonym for a gradual step by step, but why I do not look for it --- the opposite of anxious it?
At this point I see: Who the hell cut and write a composition of a different nature, cut onions using a trick question!
Twenty years later I have moved away from him, but one day in a magazine read: "Bambusa, Yiming Family feelings bamboo, bamboo Penglai, the Latin name" Bambusamultiplex (Lour.) Raeuschel ", I still think of Spring.
But what to do where I step, is the "must point to the filial piety my mother?" Is "certainly not forced to leave my mother remarry?" More is the "must not let my father's grave became a solitary graves?"
Those with a "certain" the question mark, are fierce in the years before the small drilled out from my brain, when I was impressed with promise.
Princeton, telling the truth, her mother scolded the children almost every day, and she gave me the feeling with my mother very different. Do not open easily curse my mother, when she was not happy either, and you seriously listen to reason or to staring silence.
Since just after the door soon, her mother will not bring disaster to my Mashui. I was her second daughter, married to my door, the big house wives have to live with her husband to another, so that time mainly because I get along with her mother.
In fact, her mother also left me with a lot of emotion, one of which get along, just two months, what would she have said to me, even privacy (I believe some things I know more than her children full) . But the more the narrative, is the song transferred deep memories of past events, from the year-old child bride made a start time, until her husband to find a short-sighted over the past few decades the changes were too heavy really twists and turns.
Mother without culture, but she has careful thought, she can put in a row within a decade one by one all the things described should be narrated, but not resting, end to end to sit there, say a cup of boiled water tired, dry cough soon be able to continue.
Mother in my mind, the water is the largest in memory of her life needs, other can be classified as secondary. If you forget to give her thermos add boiling water, when you plot against her her.
This peaceful coexistence did not last long, her mother began to blame me, first because I am a cook blind.
I do not see my mother where the responsibility is not taught me how to round the kitchen sink. Do not worry about her own housework, 三下五除二 would be finished, so who are considered to be more trouble to help, she was always busy, said: Let me get out to the side of the child to go!
This result led me to marry her husband's family after the cake baked in the pan, Pakistan saw a paste that is not turned over; the oil down in the pot, seeing the smoke is not cutting onions --- I do not know how to put a onions first, then cut down the middle Zhancheng paragraphs. So even though it is only thin fingers, arms so long, I am also a knife a knife from start to finish to come.
I learned a lot of idioms, so I know a synonym for a gradual step by step, but why I do not look for it --- the opposite of anxious it?
At this point I see: Who the hell cut and write a composition of a different nature, cut onions using a trick question!
Commitment to a causal parabolic（二）
He could not help but laugh: I have copied, and had wanted to lie to you more than a few days, or tell you the truth, this is the ancient of cardinal vices of the sentence.
"You touched the white one back to me!" Although I said so, but my heart is still moving.
Cultural Revolution attack in the form of public opinion a bit like the current "pyramid schemes", is brainwashing and for the brain simultaneously. Social room that time there will be open every night, not the criticism is learning will be. And Princeton, who went to a meeting, I have to wait, then sincere at the same time I have to wait for him to come back to sleep.
Closing, and a whistle came over from the community room. May be from the boring political meeting because it was free at last, men are used to blowing a long whistle to go home. Spring whistle unparalleled texture that is very, so I always whistle from a mixed chaos out of which a tune is pleasant to the ear Princeton, and then this tune is melodious to the wind to rise and fall from the, eloquence screeching halt until the courtyard, Princeton afraid of waking his mother.
Complete a waiting process that should be very romantic, but it is not. As Princeton came back, almost full of kerosene lamps were exhausted me, and my two nostrils was dusky smoke Xunde to, like a chimney.
Although I made a waste of romance, it can prove the love between me and Princeton. But I regret that, unfortunately, how kind of emotion was not equipped with love today vowed: I will love you forever.
But now there Zhenshuiwuxiang oath: "I am willing to always love you till I do not want to date."
Topic of the topic.
Since Spring's father --- my father committed suicide after the village is like a lot of people took a hit, "do with a nice integration of the wow? To see the living dead are also Zezheng whole!" With this idea, the country human bone deep simplicity that point will be revealed. Several lifetimes of people living in a tie, Princeton, the father who does not know the landlord is innocent? Although we were also in the critical swing arm also shouted slogans: fight! Down! Again set foot on one foot! But secretly are Xixilianlian.
To destroy the soul of the cost of a life, the tragic to the villagers brought heavy too harsh.
Spring to life in this tragic, his wedding night, his face is looming with a heavy heart.
"Flat, I do not say a word you do not want to hear ... .... My father is dead you know how I really feel bad ... ... now only less than my mother. I give my mother a hundred years after the bones were buried with father. So You must be filial to my mom, she's particularly bad temper, love curse. but must not be forced to leave the remarriage of her, or I would not as good as a bachelor. flat, I mean, we must not let my father's cemetery became a solitary graves! "Forty One year ago, in that room where the bridal chamber Anthurium brilliant, Spring said.
Spring eye socket when he said these words red, between mortal eyes away from me.
I read nine books, the book is not only a treasure to be found, more filial piety such as the days! And I saw my grandmother and grandfather on his mother's filial piety, so they admire their parents are the people. At this point, I looked at the Princeton, to admire the face.
"You touched the white one back to me!" Although I said so, but my heart is still moving.
Cultural Revolution attack in the form of public opinion a bit like the current "pyramid schemes", is brainwashing and for the brain simultaneously. Social room that time there will be open every night, not the criticism is learning will be. And Princeton, who went to a meeting, I have to wait, then sincere at the same time I have to wait for him to come back to sleep.
Closing, and a whistle came over from the community room. May be from the boring political meeting because it was free at last, men are used to blowing a long whistle to go home. Spring whistle unparalleled texture that is very, so I always whistle from a mixed chaos out of which a tune is pleasant to the ear Princeton, and then this tune is melodious to the wind to rise and fall from the, eloquence screeching halt until the courtyard, Princeton afraid of waking his mother.
Complete a waiting process that should be very romantic, but it is not. As Princeton came back, almost full of kerosene lamps were exhausted me, and my two nostrils was dusky smoke Xunde to, like a chimney.
Although I made a waste of romance, it can prove the love between me and Princeton. But I regret that, unfortunately, how kind of emotion was not equipped with love today vowed: I will love you forever.
But now there Zhenshuiwuxiang oath: "I am willing to always love you till I do not want to date."
Topic of the topic.
Since Spring's father --- my father committed suicide after the village is like a lot of people took a hit, "do with a nice integration of the wow? To see the living dead are also Zezheng whole!" With this idea, the country human bone deep simplicity that point will be revealed. Several lifetimes of people living in a tie, Princeton, the father who does not know the landlord is innocent? Although we were also in the critical swing arm also shouted slogans: fight! Down! Again set foot on one foot! But secretly are Xixilianlian.
To destroy the soul of the cost of a life, the tragic to the villagers brought heavy too harsh.
Spring to life in this tragic, his wedding night, his face is looming with a heavy heart.
"Flat, I do not say a word you do not want to hear ... .... My father is dead you know how I really feel bad ... ... now only less than my mother. I give my mother a hundred years after the bones were buried with father. So You must be filial to my mom, she's particularly bad temper, love curse. but must not be forced to leave the remarriage of her, or I would not as good as a bachelor. flat, I mean, we must not let my father's cemetery became a solitary graves! "Forty One year ago, in that room where the bridal chamber Anthurium brilliant, Spring said.
Spring eye socket when he said these words red, between mortal eyes away from me.
I read nine books, the book is not only a treasure to be found, more filial piety such as the days! And I saw my grandmother and grandfather on his mother's filial piety, so they admire their parents are the people. At this point, I looked at the Princeton, to admire the face.
Commitment to a causal parabolic（一）
Car to Piedmont Road, hee hee.
Studies can not easily do, marriage is not a thing in future. Married more than good! Myself and my husband, myself and my husband's house, and her husband own a small house all that is in marriage, this is the family, feelings have disappeared long ago the previous break off an engagement outside the cloud in the Jiuxiao. Only close contact with people who can be found in its loveliness, and with the lovely people together, of course, a taste of life friends. When Reed first exposed sharp angle, very thick grass near but no, I ran out to look for wildflowers.
Red lying cabinet, next to the plaster of Chairman Mao, a large belly blue narrow neck of glass, deep red yellow wildflowers every day in the open --- no matter how humble a hut, as long as it clean up , and then carefully decorated with a bunch of flowers, at once full of life. This money is not abundant and easy to hook it more special, so I want it every day.
I have never been carefully explore the many wild flowers Loop it? Actually it has never encountered this stuff and see the small white flowers in water Lingling fat, are arranged in the word fresh twig, can be used to describe the enchanting. I then asked Spring:
What kind of flowers?
He uttered a very special name.
Did not understand, you see me write.
--- Called maggots crawl.
"Why do not you? Many beautiful flowers on such a loud noise ugly name?" I regret endless: "I think must be the ... ... must be the 'banana lotus Pa', right?
Princeton laugh: that is called is called maggots crawling maggots crawling, ugly people on such a nice name, and you want it to change it? Pa lotus banana is sure to bring flowers to cursive character head? Besides pronunciation is not right.
Should be recognized that Princeton is not me and nothing in common, such as we have junior middle school education, we love to say love to laugh, we all love to sing love playing erhu --- a wall, we are also free children fiddle song. Sometimes young people get together for the village, then to a "Chairman Mao's brilliant," right? To a "we walk in the road", right? Good good, come and a bar.
There are many rosy warm memories, such as the Princeton one day said to me: "give you a" Xijiang Yue "." "You to write?" "Addressed to you."
I took one from his hands folded white paper, turn the pen --- Spring has made it very rich, very beautiful words:
Pay per envy duck neck, and even the manager to see flowers. Birds moving feelings of ignorance, how can people without Huan-ai?
Marty lady, beautiful woman eager for more years. Red Luozhang in two harmonious, Time is money can not buy!
"It was written by you?" I did not read so surprised.
Do not you believe?
I believe.
Studies can not easily do, marriage is not a thing in future. Married more than good! Myself and my husband, myself and my husband's house, and her husband own a small house all that is in marriage, this is the family, feelings have disappeared long ago the previous break off an engagement outside the cloud in the Jiuxiao. Only close contact with people who can be found in its loveliness, and with the lovely people together, of course, a taste of life friends. When Reed first exposed sharp angle, very thick grass near but no, I ran out to look for wildflowers.
Red lying cabinet, next to the plaster of Chairman Mao, a large belly blue narrow neck of glass, deep red yellow wildflowers every day in the open --- no matter how humble a hut, as long as it clean up , and then carefully decorated with a bunch of flowers, at once full of life. This money is not abundant and easy to hook it more special, so I want it every day.
I have never been carefully explore the many wild flowers Loop it? Actually it has never encountered this stuff and see the small white flowers in water Lingling fat, are arranged in the word fresh twig, can be used to describe the enchanting. I then asked Spring:
What kind of flowers?
He uttered a very special name.
Did not understand, you see me write.
--- Called maggots crawl.
"Why do not you? Many beautiful flowers on such a loud noise ugly name?" I regret endless: "I think must be the ... ... must be the 'banana lotus Pa', right?
Princeton laugh: that is called is called maggots crawling maggots crawling, ugly people on such a nice name, and you want it to change it? Pa lotus banana is sure to bring flowers to cursive character head? Besides pronunciation is not right.
Should be recognized that Princeton is not me and nothing in common, such as we have junior middle school education, we love to say love to laugh, we all love to sing love playing erhu --- a wall, we are also free children fiddle song. Sometimes young people get together for the village, then to a "Chairman Mao's brilliant," right? To a "we walk in the road", right? Good good, come and a bar.
There are many rosy warm memories, such as the Princeton one day said to me: "give you a" Xijiang Yue "." "You to write?" "Addressed to you."
I took one from his hands folded white paper, turn the pen --- Spring has made it very rich, very beautiful words:
Pay per envy duck neck, and even the manager to see flowers. Birds moving feelings of ignorance, how can people without Huan-ai?
Marty lady, beautiful woman eager for more years. Red Luozhang in two harmonious, Time is money can not buy!
"It was written by you?" I did not read so surprised.
Do not you believe?
I believe.
Talk about my in-laws（四）
Although I usually cry so easily, like this was the order of things began to cry but I can not do. Whispers of neighbors in the neighborhood, I looked up and the D phase, as she and her four items, two surprise!
Driving a mule "was too" loud hooves riding dirt road outside the village, my mind actually cool the room suddenly appeared that the two junior high pile of books, more and my "Sunny", "Golden Road "," jasmine "," Kucai Hua "," Lin Hai, "" Dream of Red Mansions "," Three Kingdoms "," Water Margin "," struggling "," Flowers in the Mirror ", and" sex "and" spring back to Dreams ", they are packed in a cardboard box, placed close to the wall nook. The cool room before and after the wall had been earlier loss to the saline wet foot high, Kela are exposed, so things are not perishable put against the wall. Can I order them the other day when, how no thought away that elevated a little bit?
They first time in the spring becomes useless wet look, and then it rains will mold, and then ... ...
Oh those poor books I have!
Vehicles in the rough, I looked at the yellow dust flying under the mule shoe, in turn think of the West of Yang Guan and that Princeton would live together, but also to cook like my mother worked in the fields of the pigs. But I do not think is good, not ready yet to leave her mother later, and then later on in life will be like it.
--- Mom! I suddenly remembered my mother did not send me out today, it is married, ah, my whole life event how can you not send her to send me? She was silent last night to remember back to oil lamps in a daze, I suddenly realized that she now must be sad to go hide somewhere!
I suddenly sobbing out loud, do not bow do not hide their faces, Joy was appointed to sit end to end "the east wind broke thousands of lines of tears!"
Get married and sent seven people feel exactly the pro line, the weather is so fine that the bride be reasonable, that will be how the mule car after arriving home, the lively scene. See me so by surprise and looked at each other.
In the clear sky, my heart like a cast a cloud, so that whenever I think of married life, the day is like a dream.
Princeton's third brother, mother and four brothers, and youngest sister live in the East House, Princeton's new house in my Westinghouse.
Three children lying red paint, white cabinets and painted the walls, are important in the description of marriage. Chairman Mao is the red plaster lying only display cabinet ("display" is inappropriate, later modified). However, that two high-sounding red candles (usually a kerosene lamp), and their light was enough to make the bridal chamber luxurious and brilliant. I looked at the Kangxi's red quilt, red quilt I looked at my legs coiled sat, when the new young married woman yet.
In and out of the crowd, I only know her mother --- Princeton students of hand, foot, four men and four women, Princeton is the son of her second child, he had a brother, two younger brothers, three sisters of a sister. Smile face happy to see you, I know today I was the most important.
Merry young people know that I love to sing, one group shouting to pull up the erhu to Princeton. I have been informed in advance, so be sure to follow the bride to eat dirt and go as the old rules, this time we honestly sing:
Gray donkey ass up, gray donkey donkey, the lifetime have not seen a good traveling ... ...
Driving a mule "was too" loud hooves riding dirt road outside the village, my mind actually cool the room suddenly appeared that the two junior high pile of books, more and my "Sunny", "Golden Road "," jasmine "," Kucai Hua "," Lin Hai, "" Dream of Red Mansions "," Three Kingdoms "," Water Margin "," struggling "," Flowers in the Mirror ", and" sex "and" spring back to Dreams ", they are packed in a cardboard box, placed close to the wall nook. The cool room before and after the wall had been earlier loss to the saline wet foot high, Kela are exposed, so things are not perishable put against the wall. Can I order them the other day when, how no thought away that elevated a little bit?
They first time in the spring becomes useless wet look, and then it rains will mold, and then ... ...
Oh those poor books I have!
Vehicles in the rough, I looked at the yellow dust flying under the mule shoe, in turn think of the West of Yang Guan and that Princeton would live together, but also to cook like my mother worked in the fields of the pigs. But I do not think is good, not ready yet to leave her mother later, and then later on in life will be like it.
--- Mom! I suddenly remembered my mother did not send me out today, it is married, ah, my whole life event how can you not send her to send me? She was silent last night to remember back to oil lamps in a daze, I suddenly realized that she now must be sad to go hide somewhere!
I suddenly sobbing out loud, do not bow do not hide their faces, Joy was appointed to sit end to end "the east wind broke thousands of lines of tears!"
Get married and sent seven people feel exactly the pro line, the weather is so fine that the bride be reasonable, that will be how the mule car after arriving home, the lively scene. See me so by surprise and looked at each other.
In the clear sky, my heart like a cast a cloud, so that whenever I think of married life, the day is like a dream.
Princeton's third brother, mother and four brothers, and youngest sister live in the East House, Princeton's new house in my Westinghouse.
Three children lying red paint, white cabinets and painted the walls, are important in the description of marriage. Chairman Mao is the red plaster lying only display cabinet ("display" is inappropriate, later modified). However, that two high-sounding red candles (usually a kerosene lamp), and their light was enough to make the bridal chamber luxurious and brilliant. I looked at the Kangxi's red quilt, red quilt I looked at my legs coiled sat, when the new young married woman yet.
In and out of the crowd, I only know her mother --- Princeton students of hand, foot, four men and four women, Princeton is the son of her second child, he had a brother, two younger brothers, three sisters of a sister. Smile face happy to see you, I know today I was the most important.
Merry young people know that I love to sing, one group shouting to pull up the erhu to Princeton. I have been informed in advance, so be sure to follow the bride to eat dirt and go as the old rules, this time we honestly sing:
Gray donkey ass up, gray donkey donkey, the lifetime have not seen a good traveling ... ...
Talk about my in-laws（三）
Thus, the annual May hopes on, but her mother does not like talking about feelings, the mother of his son found his father missing, she was ready to go visit him only the night before. That night she sat in the window blew out the lamp facing the night.
The appearance of tall, handsome father, is the kind of broad shoulders Houbei. And tens of miles within a certain radius of young, prestige, and now the villagers said that he would regret: Yeah how good a person, but unfortunately died to suffer so much!
Cultural Revolution, the father bear the spirit of criticism and physical pain, in the spring of 1967 raised the rope to hang themselves out of the village of a tree. His wife and children left suicide to a greater blot on because he was such a behavior is interpreted as: refusal to thought reform, against the people died recalcitrance.
Was only forty-year-old mother.
Comment on fairness, my mother's marriage really Biequ --- by the long working hard and making the long Kushou. In her view, no way that the husband gave her eight children, left, from actively look for the corpuscles.
After a tough life even more. Has described her mother said the days are longer than the leaves children. I was also wondering ah, leaves it there will be more long? Then I realized she was talking all day long --- more than a few Yaner mathematics that digital is endless.
In the long in Kushou, the sons and daughters to the mother silently --- absolutely no hint of a psychological possibility of remarriage, her the bones must be consumed in the end, buried her husband and killed! This is just a hint, and not on the table up finalized, but she understand that this is his only home. So, if she would like to live in loneliness and solitude, there is only one way to reduce boredom, which is angry toward their children. As for how to get angry, want to send much of the fire, she has this freedom.
Married.
In 1969 the first lunar month on the 26th, the day the sun particularly warm. Until the time when the sheep out of Singapore, a husband to a mule cart to marry me, press the "get married three four" rule, there are three riding a bike get married. With several more cannons, dressed like a red balloon like me, sitting on the mule was held on the red car was on hi.
At that time, the bride leaves her family will cry when the door, and your mother did not and do not own their youth will inevitably give birth to a little sad, if not tears of sadness but also to hide some of the drops of shy. But I crowd of people at this time, the thinking in the float, and I was blown away, a place to go. So I subconsciously look mule close watch on the car wheel hauler.
Che Gulu turn up, turn around and around.
Seeing that wheel will turn out her family hauler the gate, and open scolded his son a "pier devil" Mrs. Ding, anxious whisper ran towards me, shouting: crying, crying flat hurry!
The appearance of tall, handsome father, is the kind of broad shoulders Houbei. And tens of miles within a certain radius of young, prestige, and now the villagers said that he would regret: Yeah how good a person, but unfortunately died to suffer so much!
Cultural Revolution, the father bear the spirit of criticism and physical pain, in the spring of 1967 raised the rope to hang themselves out of the village of a tree. His wife and children left suicide to a greater blot on because he was such a behavior is interpreted as: refusal to thought reform, against the people died recalcitrance.
Was only forty-year-old mother.
Comment on fairness, my mother's marriage really Biequ --- by the long working hard and making the long Kushou. In her view, no way that the husband gave her eight children, left, from actively look for the corpuscles.
After a tough life even more. Has described her mother said the days are longer than the leaves children. I was also wondering ah, leaves it there will be more long? Then I realized she was talking all day long --- more than a few Yaner mathematics that digital is endless.
In the long in Kushou, the sons and daughters to the mother silently --- absolutely no hint of a psychological possibility of remarriage, her the bones must be consumed in the end, buried her husband and killed! This is just a hint, and not on the table up finalized, but she understand that this is his only home. So, if she would like to live in loneliness and solitude, there is only one way to reduce boredom, which is angry toward their children. As for how to get angry, want to send much of the fire, she has this freedom.
Married.
In 1969 the first lunar month on the 26th, the day the sun particularly warm. Until the time when the sheep out of Singapore, a husband to a mule cart to marry me, press the "get married three four" rule, there are three riding a bike get married. With several more cannons, dressed like a red balloon like me, sitting on the mule was held on the red car was on hi.
At that time, the bride leaves her family will cry when the door, and your mother did not and do not own their youth will inevitably give birth to a little sad, if not tears of sadness but also to hide some of the drops of shy. But I crowd of people at this time, the thinking in the float, and I was blown away, a place to go. So I subconsciously look mule close watch on the car wheel hauler.
Che Gulu turn up, turn around and around.
Seeing that wheel will turn out her family hauler the gate, and open scolded his son a "pier devil" Mrs. Ding, anxious whisper ran towards me, shouting: crying, crying flat hurry!
Talk about my in-laws（二）
So I said, her parents grandfather was designated the "rich peasant" than my father's the "landlord" to really ten times the value.
Father followed his father went to the Loop and live in this later named "Wu Liu gedan" where several people have been father and son embrace long-term employment for others, and his two brothers are in distress in married. That time her mother gave birth to a child has a daughter, who is facing a wok eighty-nine day. At that time the Loop is the main millet crops, so every morning porridge should be boiled acid Mi-meter, instant, when her mother with a basket on the screen at gruel under the surface layer of fine bran (bran called three rough), then use the rice shovel "Cha Cha" to mix, and before eating.
Years later, when the mother is the landlord that black hat, when overwhelmed, fishes children say, when rubbed in the bran porridge, not just to save some rice, but also to hard to swallow, people always eat less.
Father is determined to interested people, he suffered with his brother suffer with two, one has accumulated to buy land. This accumulation of small points into acres, finally had one of their own land.
Mother talked about such a thing to me, for years the twelfth lunar month in the father walk into town over half the children pull cloth clothes, go back when everything was finished, but Hungry, not move the legs, and then I heard someone shout "sell fat cakes it! fat cakes sold two thirds of the money!" What cake ah thought so cheap? Hurry hurry to buy a few pieces of good eating it, the results are only, a look at it is not a thing to eat.
"Supporting high", is a small box with a sawn wood is the city people to flat pad material used in furniture. Father put the pieces of "support high" his pocket, dry mouth and swallowed saliva continued on our way, imagine a large pot of sour porridge home, cooked it!
This to the eve of liberation, the family earned the next seven or eight mu land, labor is not enough also employed a few long-term employment (the two bucket Millet also one of the long-term employment both married). Ever since the long-term employment after the family no longer eat the same Guofan. They eat three brothers and long-term employment "living rice Valley" (mother language) of porridge, for children to work in the fields. Children and women are on the list, in the pan sprinkled with coarse crumbs to eat three. Her mother said with dignity, we do not suffer, so good Zuoshen eat?
Liberated.
Set aside "ingredients" as the difference between people is an unprecedented thing, who is also not sure how this distinction will have consequences. Working group who did not mind fixing a star, a leader who will be on the father Sa brothers said, according to the economic situation of your home, or a landlord two poor peasants, middle peasants or all three.
For some people behind the brother of two, said: outside your house is the boss in the final say, spend money to buy cattle are home to the Lord he did, he said work is very dry to very dry; the boss's wife at home principal, she said to loud noise loud noise to eat food. Therefore, they should be divided into landowners, poor peasants only reasonable when you Dixiong Liang.
Two brothers would have been scratching their heads, heard that makes sense, then sleepwalk to find the next day working group of people, then repeat the above. So the outcome: father is a landlord, Ershu Gong and three great-uncle is a poor peasant.
Two great-uncle was not thought by the end of this brother's life to send a cell.
When the landlord exploitation of the poor peasant is a price to pay, in custody to the father in 1952, Wolf Mountain Farm at the time to complete ideological transformation, serving six years.
Over the years, her mother silently pulling six children. Work points in the production team working mainly from sub-grain, not cash a few money. The vinegar and soy sauce do not expect to live even if the tea, kerosene Yanghuo and the children or the lack of clothes and shoes not, these Yongxiang on the outside by the time she was in labor, with the children to sweep slightly saline soil (outside the village at that time There are large tracts of saline wasteland), to pull to go home filtered saline soil drying out salt crystals, and then shift the to the city to sell, to supplement the household.
In these six years, the annual May, her mother had been allowed to visit her husband a trip to the farm, but this trip she would walk to and from nearly eighty kilometers. Her mother's legs with a disability, is limping on her life came to be.
Thus, the annual May hopes on, but her mother does not like talking about feelings
Father followed his father went to the Loop and live in this later named "Wu Liu gedan" where several people have been father and son embrace long-term employment for others, and his two brothers are in distress in married. That time her mother gave birth to a child has a daughter, who is facing a wok eighty-nine day. At that time the Loop is the main millet crops, so every morning porridge should be boiled acid Mi-meter, instant, when her mother with a basket on the screen at gruel under the surface layer of fine bran (bran called three rough), then use the rice shovel "Cha Cha" to mix, and before eating.
Years later, when the mother is the landlord that black hat, when overwhelmed, fishes children say, when rubbed in the bran porridge, not just to save some rice, but also to hard to swallow, people always eat less.
Father is determined to interested people, he suffered with his brother suffer with two, one has accumulated to buy land. This accumulation of small points into acres, finally had one of their own land.
Mother talked about such a thing to me, for years the twelfth lunar month in the father walk into town over half the children pull cloth clothes, go back when everything was finished, but Hungry, not move the legs, and then I heard someone shout "sell fat cakes it! fat cakes sold two thirds of the money!" What cake ah thought so cheap? Hurry hurry to buy a few pieces of good eating it, the results are only, a look at it is not a thing to eat.
"Supporting high", is a small box with a sawn wood is the city people to flat pad material used in furniture. Father put the pieces of "support high" his pocket, dry mouth and swallowed saliva continued on our way, imagine a large pot of sour porridge home, cooked it!
This to the eve of liberation, the family earned the next seven or eight mu land, labor is not enough also employed a few long-term employment (the two bucket Millet also one of the long-term employment both married). Ever since the long-term employment after the family no longer eat the same Guofan. They eat three brothers and long-term employment "living rice Valley" (mother language) of porridge, for children to work in the fields. Children and women are on the list, in the pan sprinkled with coarse crumbs to eat three. Her mother said with dignity, we do not suffer, so good Zuoshen eat?
Liberated.
Set aside "ingredients" as the difference between people is an unprecedented thing, who is also not sure how this distinction will have consequences. Working group who did not mind fixing a star, a leader who will be on the father Sa brothers said, according to the economic situation of your home, or a landlord two poor peasants, middle peasants or all three.
For some people behind the brother of two, said: outside your house is the boss in the final say, spend money to buy cattle are home to the Lord he did, he said work is very dry to very dry; the boss's wife at home principal, she said to loud noise loud noise to eat food. Therefore, they should be divided into landowners, poor peasants only reasonable when you Dixiong Liang.
Two brothers would have been scratching their heads, heard that makes sense, then sleepwalk to find the next day working group of people, then repeat the above. So the outcome: father is a landlord, Ershu Gong and three great-uncle is a poor peasant.
Two great-uncle was not thought by the end of this brother's life to send a cell.
When the landlord exploitation of the poor peasant is a price to pay, in custody to the father in 1952, Wolf Mountain Farm at the time to complete ideological transformation, serving six years.
Over the years, her mother silently pulling six children. Work points in the production team working mainly from sub-grain, not cash a few money. The vinegar and soy sauce do not expect to live even if the tea, kerosene Yanghuo and the children or the lack of clothes and shoes not, these Yongxiang on the outside by the time she was in labor, with the children to sweep slightly saline soil (outside the village at that time There are large tracts of saline wasteland), to pull to go home filtered saline soil drying out salt crystals, and then shift the to the city to sell, to supplement the household.
In these six years, the annual May, her mother had been allowed to visit her husband a trip to the farm, but this trip she would walk to and from nearly eighty kilometers. Her mother's legs with a disability, is limping on her life came to be.
Thus, the annual May hopes on, but her mother does not like talking about feelings
Talk about my in-laws（一）
I have a fair-skinned, proud and heaven's mother.
I must be sentimental in this house all the writing about, not for anything else, if the two women not because of me, the hurricane will not blow them to make a ride.
World coincidence (coincidence should be considered fate) too much sentimental pre-existence should not be agreed to, but they are the same, born 1922. Mother's name is Li Zhixin, mother's name is Lu successful, they were born merely to analyze the characteristics of female names to see the two women behind the home has a direct Wenmo respect.
But her mother was six years old child bride to do. Her mother severely than much of my mother, my mother knelt on the door, Guotai, and under the watchful eye of her mother Xiguo rinse bowl. Her petite figure children running around in the house every day, quietly operating domestic silent.
Ancestral home of my father bend County, Shanxi Province.
Bend and the Loop, two "river" that is a river, and the two places are in the Yellow River. But the river a set of nine CD-rich, the rich but only beyond the Great Wall of Loop, the Yellow River bend one mother did not raise her children. Wives and children back and forth over the past century has been the scene staged bend county. Particularly Ming and Qing Dynasties, a kind of war being trampled on God no income year after year of drought. So the locals shouted "people move to live, move trees die," "do not stay here, God, and God to stay at the" slogan, from generation to generation there are people who do apes casual, casual place to the foreign land to make ends meet.
Where articles in forget to read about such a dangerous road a few words to describe Xikou Description: "Go West Road, Castle Peak no clean water, no Yinfengnongyue, no complains burlesque, full of camped, full is hungry and cold, full of dead afar off. "
Since the dynasty years to six years of the Republic of China, the bend of a county has hundreds of thousands of people move to the field as much as a large proportion of which went to Inner Mongolia in the Loop (then called after the sets) region, the hard to cultivate a large number of farmland.
Fourteen-year-old mother on her birthday --- September 23, 1936, began to follow her husband Xikou to make a living, (She certainly did not know three months after the "double-second incident" marks the what). Father was the eldest son, father's parents with four sons starting from the northern Shanxi Province, all the way west.
Father's father took the family to run around their burdens. Baskets filled with the youngest son of the former, the latter is the belongings of the basket. However, soon before the basket was empty, with four children suffering from cholera, diarrhea with vomiting, leading to dehydration killed on his way.
I must be sentimental in this house all the writing about, not for anything else, if the two women not because of me, the hurricane will not blow them to make a ride.
World coincidence (coincidence should be considered fate) too much sentimental pre-existence should not be agreed to, but they are the same, born 1922. Mother's name is Li Zhixin, mother's name is Lu successful, they were born merely to analyze the characteristics of female names to see the two women behind the home has a direct Wenmo respect.
But her mother was six years old child bride to do. Her mother severely than much of my mother, my mother knelt on the door, Guotai, and under the watchful eye of her mother Xiguo rinse bowl. Her petite figure children running around in the house every day, quietly operating domestic silent.
Ancestral home of my father bend County, Shanxi Province.
Bend and the Loop, two "river" that is a river, and the two places are in the Yellow River. But the river a set of nine CD-rich, the rich but only beyond the Great Wall of Loop, the Yellow River bend one mother did not raise her children. Wives and children back and forth over the past century has been the scene staged bend county. Particularly Ming and Qing Dynasties, a kind of war being trampled on God no income year after year of drought. So the locals shouted "people move to live, move trees die," "do not stay here, God, and God to stay at the" slogan, from generation to generation there are people who do apes casual, casual place to the foreign land to make ends meet.
Where articles in forget to read about such a dangerous road a few words to describe Xikou Description: "Go West Road, Castle Peak no clean water, no Yinfengnongyue, no complains burlesque, full of camped, full is hungry and cold, full of dead afar off. "
Since the dynasty years to six years of the Republic of China, the bend of a county has hundreds of thousands of people move to the field as much as a large proportion of which went to Inner Mongolia in the Loop (then called after the sets) region, the hard to cultivate a large number of farmland.
Fourteen-year-old mother on her birthday --- September 23, 1936, began to follow her husband Xikou to make a living, (She certainly did not know three months after the "double-second incident" marks the what). Father was the eldest son, father's parents with four sons starting from the northern Shanxi Province, all the way west.
Father's father took the family to run around their burdens. Baskets filled with the youngest son of the former, the latter is the belongings of the basket. However, soon before the basket was empty, with four children suffering from cholera, diarrhea with vomiting, leading to dehydration killed on his way.
People are down long（三）
Go home? Back to back it.
I returned from Beijing, Inner Mongolia, went first to her family. Mother face stiff face, I put away the daughter in front of mother should be honest, carefully told her: "My grandfather's body is healthy, he asked you, I said my mother's body is also very healthy ah. "
I made up a lie to another lie.
Then during the Ching Ming Festival, New Year's Eve so that people pay homage to the days of death, I have to go to the intersection point of burning paper money to the grandfather, not because I believe that his soul or my Mingbi, only because I stripped my mother the death of his father's right to know, I really feel bad, however. And elsewhere can not find ways to make up only a detour Hades.
--- People are down-long management of this world once again confirmed that I lost three sons in the sampan ever after.
Mother died when I had particular regret, regret that they have too many places I'm sorry her. Insomnia at night, I will clearly remember my mother is a word sorry and will think of one thing I was rude to her mother, the Heaven ethical condemnation of me all the time. However, if the lamp dies, her mother's departure is so clear-cut, and even does not allow me to give her nail a button! In particular, the development of medicine now to prove, her risk of disease if fifteen years later, it is easy to cure! Hey life is really a barrier stack synonymous with remorse and helplessness.
But after the death of John sampan, I feel immediate changes.
Grandfather and father and mother died suddenly have become a matter of course, but the death of others, no matter how extraordinary how he mighty, all is normal!
I am selfish? But I never sampan he was only twenty years old, ah, how to stop until I let him go too! ?
Ching Ming Festival and New Year's Eve these days of commemoration of the dead man, I first went to my father and mother to the grave for a full board on the burning paper money, I understand that this is a dedication This is the filial. Then I can not wait to go ever so grave mound sampan to cry, I gave him two bundles of paper money are burned that is not enough, because he was young he was wearing love it love playing it, he should be the other side of the deep, living sea Villa powerful, domineering open Rolls Royce!
I returned from Beijing, Inner Mongolia, went first to her family. Mother face stiff face, I put away the daughter in front of mother should be honest, carefully told her: "My grandfather's body is healthy, he asked you, I said my mother's body is also very healthy ah. "
I made up a lie to another lie.
Then during the Ching Ming Festival, New Year's Eve so that people pay homage to the days of death, I have to go to the intersection point of burning paper money to the grandfather, not because I believe that his soul or my Mingbi, only because I stripped my mother the death of his father's right to know, I really feel bad, however. And elsewhere can not find ways to make up only a detour Hades.
--- People are down-long management of this world once again confirmed that I lost three sons in the sampan ever after.
Mother died when I had particular regret, regret that they have too many places I'm sorry her. Insomnia at night, I will clearly remember my mother is a word sorry and will think of one thing I was rude to her mother, the Heaven ethical condemnation of me all the time. However, if the lamp dies, her mother's departure is so clear-cut, and even does not allow me to give her nail a button! In particular, the development of medicine now to prove, her risk of disease if fifteen years later, it is easy to cure! Hey life is really a barrier stack synonymous with remorse and helplessness.
But after the death of John sampan, I feel immediate changes.
Grandfather and father and mother died suddenly have become a matter of course, but the death of others, no matter how extraordinary how he mighty, all is normal!
I am selfish? But I never sampan he was only twenty years old, ah, how to stop until I let him go too! ?
Ching Ming Festival and New Year's Eve these days of commemoration of the dead man, I first went to my father and mother to the grave for a full board on the burning paper money, I understand that this is a dedication This is the filial. Then I can not wait to go ever so grave mound sampan to cry, I gave him two bundles of paper money are burned that is not enough, because he was young he was wearing love it love playing it, he should be the other side of the deep, living sea Villa powerful, domineering open Rolls Royce!
People are down long（二）
It is not Xianzang it, Xianzang forget how?
Then my son said to me: Mom, I have a good first of all want to plug in my son's mouth, if you have a second port will think of you, you said do not blame this blame?
That is not strange. Since the people are down long, and that generation of people should be clockwise, otherwise there will be two generations away from the middle to be dry, and made vain the vain child under the parents, it can be miserable.
Think of my son sitting a few months, is mother to wait, even once dared not delay, she said, in my mind by the time of awkward, she waited at the front would be fine, or fear of bad eyes, I cried.
At that time, my mother said to me this statement: flat, remember to talk back to you with your father, when prepared with ten thousand behind it, now you learn on how Princeton endured?
I can only ridicule.
Sub-sat for a month in August, is the busy season. Across the fifty two miles home, my mother is not easy to come back, not easy to come back, so she just put a pig and to teenagers in the sugar beet is sold to serve me. In the winter the family did not meat, but for a whole year without water, because of me suffer.
If I have let down my mother's place is in my twenty-year-old that year (1979) for two years and holding Princeton Ouqi Wing sampan back to his home, but accidentally catch the nail in the coffin for the grandfather.
Phi Ma mourn when I kneel before the grandfather spirit of the time, the villagers said flat is filial to the surrogacy.
Grandfather came back from our family has lived in this small room. Regardless of the then eight-aunt of seven noisy lot, the only pro-grandfather granddaughter of King Lai, adhering to the Old Lee family hatred of her mother's mantle, just over two hundred years away, do not come.
The next morning, once I have said numerous allusions to the grandfather, holding my hand just say, "dizziness," the word to quietly happy death Liao.
I leave this tour, even to bring back a total of 35 days.
When I go under the very strong determination, first of all we must see the godmother, and then make their own to find things to do to survive, in short, absolutely not go back. Beijing's aunt did not know why I came, but a look dowdy mother of two learned to wear to my situation and a. She tried to retain me, and said he would help me a vegetable greenhouses in the suburbs contract, more than two thousand a year profit is very easy. At that time the outskirts of Beijing has been implemented around the "contract" and the policy for the Inner Mongolia region, just plug in a feather on the envelope. We do not yet accustomed to "thousands" of money.
So I heard "two thousand" the huge numbers surprised. But surprise, after pondering I figured to go in can not leave forever and never ship Fang matter. To put it more solid, that I also can not completely put aside Princeton, as the days away from home increased day by day, I told him to keep the pain reduced day by day. Women may have it.
Thus, my current trip to Beijing and Tianjin, the initial plan to the whole mess.
Then my son said to me: Mom, I have a good first of all want to plug in my son's mouth, if you have a second port will think of you, you said do not blame this blame?
That is not strange. Since the people are down long, and that generation of people should be clockwise, otherwise there will be two generations away from the middle to be dry, and made vain the vain child under the parents, it can be miserable.
Think of my son sitting a few months, is mother to wait, even once dared not delay, she said, in my mind by the time of awkward, she waited at the front would be fine, or fear of bad eyes, I cried.
At that time, my mother said to me this statement: flat, remember to talk back to you with your father, when prepared with ten thousand behind it, now you learn on how Princeton endured?
I can only ridicule.
Sub-sat for a month in August, is the busy season. Across the fifty two miles home, my mother is not easy to come back, not easy to come back, so she just put a pig and to teenagers in the sugar beet is sold to serve me. In the winter the family did not meat, but for a whole year without water, because of me suffer.
If I have let down my mother's place is in my twenty-year-old that year (1979) for two years and holding Princeton Ouqi Wing sampan back to his home, but accidentally catch the nail in the coffin for the grandfather.
Phi Ma mourn when I kneel before the grandfather spirit of the time, the villagers said flat is filial to the surrogacy.
Grandfather came back from our family has lived in this small room. Regardless of the then eight-aunt of seven noisy lot, the only pro-grandfather granddaughter of King Lai, adhering to the Old Lee family hatred of her mother's mantle, just over two hundred years away, do not come.
The next morning, once I have said numerous allusions to the grandfather, holding my hand just say, "dizziness," the word to quietly happy death Liao.
I leave this tour, even to bring back a total of 35 days.
When I go under the very strong determination, first of all we must see the godmother, and then make their own to find things to do to survive, in short, absolutely not go back. Beijing's aunt did not know why I came, but a look dowdy mother of two learned to wear to my situation and a. She tried to retain me, and said he would help me a vegetable greenhouses in the suburbs contract, more than two thousand a year profit is very easy. At that time the outskirts of Beijing has been implemented around the "contract" and the policy for the Inner Mongolia region, just plug in a feather on the envelope. We do not yet accustomed to "thousands" of money.
So I heard "two thousand" the huge numbers surprised. But surprise, after pondering I figured to go in can not leave forever and never ship Fang matter. To put it more solid, that I also can not completely put aside Princeton, as the days away from home increased day by day, I told him to keep the pain reduced day by day. Women may have it.
Thus, my current trip to Beijing and Tianjin, the initial plan to the whole mess.
People are down long（一）
Asked the blessing of her mother, then I really write a book. But I did not deep and detailed written to my mother, because my pen one of her there to walk slowly, I do not know what hour of the incident from which to write from.
Memory, when the elementary school in Tianjin, my mother always let me go to small shops to buy things, but most times is to buy a --- then of course, no soap and no washing machine detergent, can only hold washboard coated with soap, rub incessantly. Mom and especially like the white linen curtains, white easy to dye, and always add a stain, but her mother never hesitate to pull down on the wash. Mom told me that her life too much bad water damage, water and food, as could not be wasted. Said to be after her death, I will give her cook a buffalo made of paper, drink that dirty water.
Fifty-year-old mother suffering from a stroke after-effects of that year, and the cleanliness of her life goodbye to, people are all changed a lot. Holding a walking stick, half a body such active passive walking half a body. Later eating with chopsticks also feel strenuous to the hand-assisted, but did not perception of flow out of the nose, a beautiful mother dirty.
If looks alone, said father and mother should be the fate of the East River in the West Bank, and the father of her character than the angular and she is definitely seek perfection. She said the marriage is a pity, but she never thought, from fifty-year-old to sixty-year-old, she has eleven years of a living heart in my father's hand, eat a hot meal drink have to rely on hand-side of hot water to my father. This end, only as the father so kind and patient man to do --- my mother had the choice is correct.
Posterior is a black who also touch them, be fair, the three siblings together to serve our mother and father of a mother who serve in quantity and quality did not have comparable.
"Lost the only regret", the theory is more true to the family. Her mother was alive I was always a clear conscience, I feel my fate and situation of the mother of a filial enough. When my mother lived with me, often diarrhea, when I won the hands of those dirt under her body, dripping down the fingers to put flowing into the basin, her dull eyes staring at me actually faces, to distinguish whether I Xianzang. So I like to do something else, like Taitailielie to do it, let her chill.
But after, I will find a place to desperately avoid her hands, again and again to wash.
People really down long, because my children here, I will not use the "dirt" is used. I do not know where these guys come reborn if you like, do not pull jack easily put something yellow Puchi soon defecate at the dinner table, so I quickly found that paper to wipe ass wipe that thing, and then continue to eat about Duanwan only when the hand suddenly remembered that he has forgotten it!
Memory, when the elementary school in Tianjin, my mother always let me go to small shops to buy things, but most times is to buy a --- then of course, no soap and no washing machine detergent, can only hold washboard coated with soap, rub incessantly. Mom and especially like the white linen curtains, white easy to dye, and always add a stain, but her mother never hesitate to pull down on the wash. Mom told me that her life too much bad water damage, water and food, as could not be wasted. Said to be after her death, I will give her cook a buffalo made of paper, drink that dirty water.
Fifty-year-old mother suffering from a stroke after-effects of that year, and the cleanliness of her life goodbye to, people are all changed a lot. Holding a walking stick, half a body such active passive walking half a body. Later eating with chopsticks also feel strenuous to the hand-assisted, but did not perception of flow out of the nose, a beautiful mother dirty.
If looks alone, said father and mother should be the fate of the East River in the West Bank, and the father of her character than the angular and she is definitely seek perfection. She said the marriage is a pity, but she never thought, from fifty-year-old to sixty-year-old, she has eleven years of a living heart in my father's hand, eat a hot meal drink have to rely on hand-side of hot water to my father. This end, only as the father so kind and patient man to do --- my mother had the choice is correct.
Posterior is a black who also touch them, be fair, the three siblings together to serve our mother and father of a mother who serve in quantity and quality did not have comparable.
"Lost the only regret", the theory is more true to the family. Her mother was alive I was always a clear conscience, I feel my fate and situation of the mother of a filial enough. When my mother lived with me, often diarrhea, when I won the hands of those dirt under her body, dripping down the fingers to put flowing into the basin, her dull eyes staring at me actually faces, to distinguish whether I Xianzang. So I like to do something else, like Taitailielie to do it, let her chill.
But after, I will find a place to desperately avoid her hands, again and again to wash.
People really down long, because my children here, I will not use the "dirt" is used. I do not know where these guys come reborn if you like, do not pull jack easily put something yellow Puchi soon defecate at the dinner table, so I quickly found that paper to wipe ass wipe that thing, and then continue to eat about Duanwan only when the hand suddenly remembered that he has forgotten it!
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Dreams really can not explain.
Back to long distance weaknesses. Princeton, when I do 折腾了半天 or give his wife. This should refer to the local saying "Three Religions One" to illustrate the problem: the Cultural Revolution, if not more so in a timely manner, if the Art Institute of Inner Mongolia, admission that there is no void, if I do not think that their future completely finished, this marriage will not take Since the consumer. Whether or vilified by the secular idea of what is cursed by the other, with the mental maturity and is expected to cause, the reality will help me to get out away without conscience.
And, my ideal light, really has gone out.
There absolutely is the day the way I have it? Or simply that the Cultural Revolution "behalf of Heaven" has a moral support from the balance? There will be no short I chose the envy, and I were an auspicious choice, waiting for Spring to marry.
No alternative options and Princeton before marriage, which of course is not conscience. But I want to dead set on this marriage business, it is the truth.
Before there is one detail, the summer of 1967 Spring season sent me clothes, we found his family face a very bleak, but also found him more than a black sleeve of "filial piety hoop," a special filial hoop garish.
Soon his face was downcast grandfather warned us: "see him? Death is not his father, his mother. Who is also not allowed to mention the break off an engagement to do it!" Then mother told me sternly: "Do not say anything today, hear me? "
Back to long distance weaknesses. Princeton, when I do 折腾了半天 or give his wife. This should refer to the local saying "Three Religions One" to illustrate the problem: the Cultural Revolution, if not more so in a timely manner, if the Art Institute of Inner Mongolia, admission that there is no void, if I do not think that their future completely finished, this marriage will not take Since the consumer. Whether or vilified by the secular idea of what is cursed by the other, with the mental maturity and is expected to cause, the reality will help me to get out away without conscience.
And, my ideal light, really has gone out.
There absolutely is the day the way I have it? Or simply that the Cultural Revolution "behalf of Heaven" has a moral support from the balance? There will be no short I chose the envy, and I were an auspicious choice, waiting for Spring to marry.
No alternative options and Princeton before marriage, which of course is not conscience. But I want to dead set on this marriage business, it is the truth.
Before there is one detail, the summer of 1967 Spring season sent me clothes, we found his family face a very bleak, but also found him more than a black sleeve of "filial piety hoop," a special filial hoop garish.
Soon his face was downcast grandfather warned us: "see him? Death is not his father, his mother. Who is also not allowed to mention the break off an engagement to do it!" Then mother told me sternly: "Do not say anything today, hear me? "
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Spring came to my house later time, is to bring me winter clothes --- a blue khaki jacket trousers. He comes, I pretended that I did not say anything nice (because I promised the people of the ah himself), he left, I cried to break off an engagement to break off an engagement, and returned to her mother had an idea: finding a son-it so that for us to this debt, not on the line?
Grandfather was still living in our house, he told me a bunch of old maxim, meaning that a man can not do this, people long days and long, short days were short. Aid to the people we most difficult days, so not a liar Xiemoshalv it? Dad also said: I watch the young man could hang physique Jun gas facial features, pleasing to the eye more than you, people are easy-going, why have to break off an engagement? I am afraid you can not find him after that yet.
No patience to listen to my mother the most importune: to say to yourself that you personally agreed, let me mention how are you going? Is my back?
After the single reason I started to pray to the Goddess of Mercy, the superstition (I think he is not fan letter) of the seed is sown fifteen years old. During that time my way home every Saturday, are in the middle of a large sub-weir sorghum find a break in, break in the middle of sitting there talking like crazy: Guanyin mother bless me to retire, right marriage , bless me back of the bar. At the same time I put a small piece of Kela throw up their best effort, and then fell to the ground to see if it is to the left or right sub-weir, in order to determine the success of my strategy.
When I was fifteen years old, so this move is not my first. We remember as a child of three siblings if they have any disease disaster ah, my mother would burn incense and kowtow to this mantra.
Sometimes a small piece of the left and sometimes right side of Kela, this result clearly invalid, but I still ton of bricks to make it destiny, throw another throw, and then looked up at the small Kela, watching the sky.
I looked at the sky for a long time.
A "trust" --- I really believe it? This is a trumped-up feeling. Now that at home, I gave this woman every day, this goddess Guanyin burning incense, has become accustomed to living. The study of its foundation, because I believe that his destiny was as an "inhuman" will twist into the melon. Of course, my "faith" is just one of a small letter. "Trust" the meaning of the word of our nation --- for any country and nation, are essential.
No change has been a long history of materialism, idealism two schools exist in the fact that the human mind, has confirmed the absolute truth does not exist. Darwin's theory of evolution has been there 100 years, and now scientists are not only unable to carry on this theory, and in beginning to question its authenticity. Micro-biologists, paleontologists and still are human beings on the earth what is brought by aliens or their own experimental product evolved by microorganisms? What on Earth is the first generation of human or already extinct regeneration of N times? The confusion no solution. --- Those who are similar to those unanswered questions superstition are classified into the category of superstition, like the Cultural Revolution to draw the black category.
Qian Zhong book that there are many scenes between heaven and earth is only visible to Bile Yan, such as dreams, Mr. Qian Lao of course, is not in the meaning of dreams Weng dream, but modern science has really no ability to actually solve the dream.
Speaking of the dream. I remembered a dream I've ever done, that dream is very real. I want to break off an engagement in that period of time, I dreamed I was married back Princeton. At that time in the morning, my cool room holding basin to the south to look for rice cooking. M but in a very high, with hoops hoops into a large bucket of white stubble, but not much in the base on meters, out of reach, so I stepped on a small stool with a bowl dig meters.
Need people to help my mother cook, so I did not dig too m; I've only been home a Princeton, but also not seen a situation in the south cold room inside, say I have never seen such a white stubble barrel. That time all of the families are placed in the urn with soil rice, so I think this very strange dream.
Princeton two years later was married I really went back when I do the morning light a fire Mi rice, the Princeton told me: m barrels in the cold room.
I brought earthen pot cool open the door of the south, could see some kind almost made me cry out: that the white stubble large barrel exactly the same dream with me. I hesitated a long time before the lid, unlike a lot of rice bucket, I do not need to be dug stepping stool.
Grandfather was still living in our house, he told me a bunch of old maxim, meaning that a man can not do this, people long days and long, short days were short. Aid to the people we most difficult days, so not a liar Xiemoshalv it? Dad also said: I watch the young man could hang physique Jun gas facial features, pleasing to the eye more than you, people are easy-going, why have to break off an engagement? I am afraid you can not find him after that yet.
No patience to listen to my mother the most importune: to say to yourself that you personally agreed, let me mention how are you going? Is my back?
After the single reason I started to pray to the Goddess of Mercy, the superstition (I think he is not fan letter) of the seed is sown fifteen years old. During that time my way home every Saturday, are in the middle of a large sub-weir sorghum find a break in, break in the middle of sitting there talking like crazy: Guanyin mother bless me to retire, right marriage , bless me back of the bar. At the same time I put a small piece of Kela throw up their best effort, and then fell to the ground to see if it is to the left or right sub-weir, in order to determine the success of my strategy.
When I was fifteen years old, so this move is not my first. We remember as a child of three siblings if they have any disease disaster ah, my mother would burn incense and kowtow to this mantra.
Sometimes a small piece of the left and sometimes right side of Kela, this result clearly invalid, but I still ton of bricks to make it destiny, throw another throw, and then looked up at the small Kela, watching the sky.
I looked at the sky for a long time.
A "trust" --- I really believe it? This is a trumped-up feeling. Now that at home, I gave this woman every day, this goddess Guanyin burning incense, has become accustomed to living. The study of its foundation, because I believe that his destiny was as an "inhuman" will twist into the melon. Of course, my "faith" is just one of a small letter. "Trust" the meaning of the word of our nation --- for any country and nation, are essential.
No change has been a long history of materialism, idealism two schools exist in the fact that the human mind, has confirmed the absolute truth does not exist. Darwin's theory of evolution has been there 100 years, and now scientists are not only unable to carry on this theory, and in beginning to question its authenticity. Micro-biologists, paleontologists and still are human beings on the earth what is brought by aliens or their own experimental product evolved by microorganisms? What on Earth is the first generation of human or already extinct regeneration of N times? The confusion no solution. --- Those who are similar to those unanswered questions superstition are classified into the category of superstition, like the Cultural Revolution to draw the black category.
Qian Zhong book that there are many scenes between heaven and earth is only visible to Bile Yan, such as dreams, Mr. Qian Lao of course, is not in the meaning of dreams Weng dream, but modern science has really no ability to actually solve the dream.
Speaking of the dream. I remembered a dream I've ever done, that dream is very real. I want to break off an engagement in that period of time, I dreamed I was married back Princeton. At that time in the morning, my cool room holding basin to the south to look for rice cooking. M but in a very high, with hoops hoops into a large bucket of white stubble, but not much in the base on meters, out of reach, so I stepped on a small stool with a bowl dig meters.
Need people to help my mother cook, so I did not dig too m; I've only been home a Princeton, but also not seen a situation in the south cold room inside, say I have never seen such a white stubble barrel. That time all of the families are placed in the urn with soil rice, so I think this very strange dream.
Princeton two years later was married I really went back when I do the morning light a fire Mi rice, the Princeton told me: m barrels in the cold room.
I brought earthen pot cool open the door of the south, could see some kind almost made me cry out: that the white stubble large barrel exactly the same dream with me. I hesitated a long time before the lid, unlike a lot of rice bucket, I do not need to be dug stepping stool.
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I wrote in the front: First, I borrowed other people's food at home do not delay starting to go blind in one fell swoop and then success.
I remember it was two days of a summer morning, I was still cold room, read books and shift their own, while also reciting the text, "Mai Tanweng": "... ... the poor who are single clothing, heart sick carbon base is willing to Tian Han ... ... "
Suddenly the door for her mother: flat, today is not to say a good son to go to it? You quickly tidy up ... ...
See --- is the son of? Who is he? Yes, references that he called the Spring.
Sitting in carts, swinging over fifty miles, to the Spring half-Houshang was living village.
Very neat small farm house, walls are not impeccably cleaned and point edge collapse, the ground swept a Clipping are not, most say the mother was the first health cheeky satisfaction. Walked into the room, a young man stood up politely greeted us, leisurely tea Duanfan, I knew he was a Princeton. And when I see him wearing a white hand-stitched fabric of Chinese cities breasted jacket, the mind actually dug out, "Mai Tanweng" in two sentences: elegant Liangji to who? In yellow messenger in white children ... ... "
This time when you think of such a sentence, I feel a bit happened, so in my heart smile. May also have a smile on his face, right? Mom Lengding pulling my sleeve it. Looked up, the original people here looked at me, and I hope that Princeton table a state to see the two sides are not agreed?
At a time when my mind is just flying Princeton Shenshangnajian in white children, but I assent. Now that the two people agree that marriage has become.
Go back when the prospective mother to bring me a man and a woman who faces two children (marks golden couple). Children who are lunar surface July 15 marks the festival. Loop of the rural folk that time, over the holiday, the household must be steamed dough to the children. The reason why this custom has been followed because of the hard Mozhe adults to children, but also because more children left a pot of a pot to steam the right, no matter how busy are steamed. Children to share a few faces of people treasure every day on the sun, drying out the dough as much --- even with a special sour flavor taste, did not have to throw today, tomorrow, pull the arm pulling article legs, the provincial sometimes connected with something to eat the moon cake it on August 15.
"A car carbon, more than a thousand pounds, will unfortunately not be driven minister. Half piece ten feet of red raw silk damask, the Department of charge to the carbon value of Tau." Ox-cart bumps on the way home, I hold the two faces of people children recited.
One day, I put "Mai Tanweng" recite the whole chapter is completed.
With her in-laws a girl can grow up to learn to think. Holidays, the marriage set a school I'll regret it. I hate myself more and more time will nod, that Princeton he was a stranger strangers ah. But I'm vested interests: the need to borrow their food is also a; next year and a half of the tuition paid by them; his house to change clothes according to the winter and summer to me.
And I'm still wondering how to get it drained away the match. This matter is too trouble, maybe when the crowd suddenly came to my mind no fixed my trance. The brain in the classroom always made empty eyed, staring at the teacher's face can not hear what he was saying.
I remember it was two days of a summer morning, I was still cold room, read books and shift their own, while also reciting the text, "Mai Tanweng": "... ... the poor who are single clothing, heart sick carbon base is willing to Tian Han ... ... "
Suddenly the door for her mother: flat, today is not to say a good son to go to it? You quickly tidy up ... ...
See --- is the son of? Who is he? Yes, references that he called the Spring.
Sitting in carts, swinging over fifty miles, to the Spring half-Houshang was living village.
Very neat small farm house, walls are not impeccably cleaned and point edge collapse, the ground swept a Clipping are not, most say the mother was the first health cheeky satisfaction. Walked into the room, a young man stood up politely greeted us, leisurely tea Duanfan, I knew he was a Princeton. And when I see him wearing a white hand-stitched fabric of Chinese cities breasted jacket, the mind actually dug out, "Mai Tanweng" in two sentences: elegant Liangji to who? In yellow messenger in white children ... ... "
This time when you think of such a sentence, I feel a bit happened, so in my heart smile. May also have a smile on his face, right? Mom Lengding pulling my sleeve it. Looked up, the original people here looked at me, and I hope that Princeton table a state to see the two sides are not agreed?
At a time when my mind is just flying Princeton Shenshangnajian in white children, but I assent. Now that the two people agree that marriage has become.
Go back when the prospective mother to bring me a man and a woman who faces two children (marks golden couple). Children who are lunar surface July 15 marks the festival. Loop of the rural folk that time, over the holiday, the household must be steamed dough to the children. The reason why this custom has been followed because of the hard Mozhe adults to children, but also because more children left a pot of a pot to steam the right, no matter how busy are steamed. Children to share a few faces of people treasure every day on the sun, drying out the dough as much --- even with a special sour flavor taste, did not have to throw today, tomorrow, pull the arm pulling article legs, the provincial sometimes connected with something to eat the moon cake it on August 15.
"A car carbon, more than a thousand pounds, will unfortunately not be driven minister. Half piece ten feet of red raw silk damask, the Department of charge to the carbon value of Tau." Ox-cart bumps on the way home, I hold the two faces of people children recited.
One day, I put "Mai Tanweng" recite the whole chapter is completed.
With her in-laws a girl can grow up to learn to think. Holidays, the marriage set a school I'll regret it. I hate myself more and more time will nod, that Princeton he was a stranger strangers ah. But I'm vested interests: the need to borrow their food is also a; next year and a half of the tuition paid by them; his house to change clothes according to the winter and summer to me.
And I'm still wondering how to get it drained away the match. This matter is too trouble, maybe when the crowd suddenly came to my mind no fixed my trance. The brain in the classroom always made empty eyed, staring at the teacher's face can not hear what he was saying.
I did not love（二）
Ho Fai this, I never told anybody about any of including family members, because I do not know what to say. At the same time, I did not go over to the next village where they confronted him Hui revolution has nothing to do with the words (I am disturbed with the result of his confrontation). Why is he so willing to take the effort to discredit me? We are all teenagers, but where's the hate? I really inexplicable.
Delegated to remember our family that just two years, the village is difficult to place one or two things that can be called entertainment, even sing from the field to two minor blind, we all have to bundle up and listen. Call it a day to work a few hours before going to sleep that generally flies almost vacuum.
We are three siblings from the cold room, pulls out a glass lantern, remember brought from Tianjin. Cleaned it, and point play made the candles, glass lanterns did not expect this shock has become the village's literary landscape. Every night, all the children shouted in unison along with the lanterns: a lantern, warming himself to, do not you come I come!
We are a large group of children walked past the village after village, then walked from village after village before the scene was spectacular, even the big people Chuaizhuo hand side of the road, see a grin.
Ho Fai, though not with one of our village, but every night to join the team, he shouted very loud, and he eyes the candlelight in the lantern, and very bright.
However, his eyes bright behind the other children did not like the pure spirit?
During that time I just broke in a magazine that a person's blood type on the Character. So I think that if the road alone when I met him to ask: Are you a blood type A it? In your heart, there is a place that no one can access it? Let me ask you, is where you make up disgracing my lies?
Ten years later I was already a mother of three children, a break in the field Ho Fai success, suddenly wrote a letter to me. Written language is extremely sincere, that he too young and naive then, so that many non-existent words. Then he told me, the shadow of my girlhood, had been chasing for many years with him, but he did not think I have a husband so early, so he ... ... I'm sorry.
Oh, because I have a husband, so he discredit me.
I do not know whether he is blood type A, I just figured out why he discredit me. But after I find out more confused.
A few years later, a close relationship between the students asked me: you and He Hui ... ... really kind of relationship? I had heard these words it means I am sorry to ask you.
"The kind of relationship" between men and women of course, but I believe it will not be any rumors Hui slander their own right? Otherwise be ridiculous, because I have not shaken hands with him, because that society is not the fashion handshake.
By the way, he said he was sorry in the letter me.
"I'm sorry," these three words in people's lives everywhere, who inadvertently touched the arm, his foot step on people, we must say sorry. The Ho-fai of this "sorry", but I carry the light was fixed.
However, if you can, in turn, said: Forty years ago in the distortion of history that period, we are all distorted children. So, even if HE Hui was a string of memories long forgotten, but do not say I'm sorry, I'm persevering him that?
Delegated to remember our family that just two years, the village is difficult to place one or two things that can be called entertainment, even sing from the field to two minor blind, we all have to bundle up and listen. Call it a day to work a few hours before going to sleep that generally flies almost vacuum.
We are three siblings from the cold room, pulls out a glass lantern, remember brought from Tianjin. Cleaned it, and point play made the candles, glass lanterns did not expect this shock has become the village's literary landscape. Every night, all the children shouted in unison along with the lanterns: a lantern, warming himself to, do not you come I come!
We are a large group of children walked past the village after village, then walked from village after village before the scene was spectacular, even the big people Chuaizhuo hand side of the road, see a grin.
Ho Fai, though not with one of our village, but every night to join the team, he shouted very loud, and he eyes the candlelight in the lantern, and very bright.
However, his eyes bright behind the other children did not like the pure spirit?
During that time I just broke in a magazine that a person's blood type on the Character. So I think that if the road alone when I met him to ask: Are you a blood type A it? In your heart, there is a place that no one can access it? Let me ask you, is where you make up disgracing my lies?
Ten years later I was already a mother of three children, a break in the field Ho Fai success, suddenly wrote a letter to me. Written language is extremely sincere, that he too young and naive then, so that many non-existent words. Then he told me, the shadow of my girlhood, had been chasing for many years with him, but he did not think I have a husband so early, so he ... ... I'm sorry.
Oh, because I have a husband, so he discredit me.
I do not know whether he is blood type A, I just figured out why he discredit me. But after I find out more confused.
A few years later, a close relationship between the students asked me: you and He Hui ... ... really kind of relationship? I had heard these words it means I am sorry to ask you.
"The kind of relationship" between men and women of course, but I believe it will not be any rumors Hui slander their own right? Otherwise be ridiculous, because I have not shaken hands with him, because that society is not the fashion handshake.
By the way, he said he was sorry in the letter me.
"I'm sorry," these three words in people's lives everywhere, who inadvertently touched the arm, his foot step on people, we must say sorry. The Ho-fai of this "sorry", but I carry the light was fixed.
However, if you can, in turn, said: Forty years ago in the distortion of history that period, we are all distorted children. So, even if HE Hui was a string of memories long forgotten, but do not say I'm sorry, I'm persevering him that?
I did not love（一）
Although my grandfather had to return home, but parents should be dragged to the usual criticism. And we return home is to these students to the vast world where to find acts, is to re-education by poor peasants, so I have to attend must participate in political campaigns, farm labor conference.
Work in the fields every day, every day, work points to bear in mind that time Du coil work points to do with the mind.
Call it a day at noon day, I went to the Accounting Office yesterday's work points in mind he added.
I went late, he was alone in the house.
I did not forget to give DU a few years ago I wrote a snake Summer reviews the evil things, but did not tell anyone about before. To our family situation was, I believe "on the roof."
I sat back into his long wooden bench, turned over the volumes of my work, suddenly he was thrown around from behind me, his arms are as strong.
Across a desk, I break the hard side, while a low voice shouted to him: Let not? Do not let go I'll go to your mother!
Du snake-old mother is nearly seventy, the body is very good.
He immediately let go her hand, says bitterly: "You pretend to be serious? Who does not know your dorm room at school, boys have a drill every night in bed at midnight and then go to bed!"
"Who ... ... say?" I smoke the air between the teeth, lips trembling rustled.
"Who does that? Team who know the students know your school! And your team with the young man who Xiahun we do, they know!" He suddenly grinned and laughed unimpeded.
I felt his chest burning in the fire: "I mix in the team with which the young man? Tell you one to! Are you made a rumor, right? Ah you really damage you, I'm sorry you loud noise makes you so harm me? "
"It is not my harm you, you have boys dorm things under the bed, and you mix in the village to do with the young man who are Hui Ho ... ..." He suddenly stopped.
He hui is the next village, and my school, but with different classes. Almost all the villages together with the village, the young people are scheming to know he is a special person. I believe that DU is a timid snake, and he untouchables Hui He did not dare go on.
Work in the fields every day, every day, work points to bear in mind that time Du coil work points to do with the mind.
Call it a day at noon day, I went to the Accounting Office yesterday's work points in mind he added.
I went late, he was alone in the house.
I did not forget to give DU a few years ago I wrote a snake Summer reviews the evil things, but did not tell anyone about before. To our family situation was, I believe "on the roof."
I sat back into his long wooden bench, turned over the volumes of my work, suddenly he was thrown around from behind me, his arms are as strong.
Across a desk, I break the hard side, while a low voice shouted to him: Let not? Do not let go I'll go to your mother!
Du snake-old mother is nearly seventy, the body is very good.
He immediately let go her hand, says bitterly: "You pretend to be serious? Who does not know your dorm room at school, boys have a drill every night in bed at midnight and then go to bed!"
"Who ... ... say?" I smoke the air between the teeth, lips trembling rustled.
"Who does that? Team who know the students know your school! And your team with the young man who Xiahun we do, they know!" He suddenly grinned and laughed unimpeded.
I felt his chest burning in the fire: "I mix in the team with which the young man? Tell you one to! Are you made a rumor, right? Ah you really damage you, I'm sorry you loud noise makes you so harm me? "
"It is not my harm you, you have boys dorm things under the bed, and you mix in the village to do with the young man who are Hui Ho ... ..." He suddenly stopped.
He hui is the next village, and my school, but with different classes. Almost all the villages together with the village, the young people are scheming to know he is a special person. I believe that DU is a timid snake, and he untouchables Hui He did not dare go on.
After the conversation is limited in the past
When I am in the rural farming has not been news of Zhang and later moved to urban areas, the first thing I added something to his house and then knock on his door.
Sailed the seven seas?
Imagine the scene without the prior, or just a though time will not be erased, but it has been experiencing the feeling of change? Very far shore. I found Zhang's face a bit surprised: "Chen Ping, we meet ... ... is that so?"
So, Which is it? I walked all the way lax moments of tension and excitement, so the history of the beginning of a paragraph from the front.
After that, in my vegetables, selling alcohol and tobacco, in the middle of the booth opened, Zhang used to go Talk to me, but he is subject only to lock in my student days, said he had kept my notes in class with a later students to see; said he was particularly appreciative of my time to writing, pictures and music talent. Only prudent to ask a question only occasionally:
Chen Ping, the sale also ... ... you can maintain life, right?
He looked and voices are very cautious, afraid of what knocked over.
My last sale, open upstairs in the stadium, "if it" --- public telephone room. Zhang now over seventy, and one day he Tuimenzoujin years, with a smile on his face in his hand Erhu: Chen Ping, the business of busy right now you sing a "Let us double Dangqi paste "it.
My heart "bang" to leap.
Sixth grade, I was under the guidance of Zhang has been involved in a school where the "variety show" is a production team for several folks to watch the box-office scale, is a cotton ball dipped in kerosene and burning out the light of the choreography design. In this conference, I jumped a solo dance "Let us double Dangqi pulp", so called by my own choreography, Zhang erhu for me accompaniment. The clothing is required for Zhang broken bike riding his bike ran Shiji Li Road, for me to take back a black with gold trim Taozai Mongolian dress.
Zhang life has taught countless students he taught me only a year, but seem to remember many things that occur that year.
If my writing, painting and music really have so little talent, then this talent Zhang whipping me in the year, like the camel seems to grow a lot of water sprouts.
With this year's "Fu Miao encourage" the bottom, after I went into junior high school, though often bring disaster to the family of the economic distress, it will often be "Zhaopo Jia" This kind of "Chu" by the interference, and the final reading After that summer, after two days of certainty of the future "son", but I like this talent is still known for bean sprouts. I taught myself music notation, go to room East Rasi playing musical instruments, and often self-study course by the time furtively painting the picture that, while writing levels improved a lot.
The eve of graduation, Inner Mongolia Autonomous Institute of the Arts for the whole recruitment, total number enrolled 25. It is said that whenever you get into this college, students can get a monthly living allowance of eight dollars, and artistic career is very terrible.
At that time our village is still in the labor force fell in the attendance bonus, people will see eye to open a dollar. Therefore, the amount of eight dollars, in my opinion not enough astronomical geography.
I went to the examination, the examination subjects are: writing, drawing and music, which compared three are my strengths. If the test is that physics and chemistry, I was all over.
Then I heard that they have been admitted to the college news, college art teacher came to our school invigilator Chen, himself told the principals.
In all the students fill in their studies seriously volunteer table, I roll back the blanket to school children complacent, I want to go home and waiting for the offer. Then it, then I'll go to Inner Mongolia College of Art Postgraduate it!
Bloodshed's Ji Maoxin also came two: the Cultural Revolution to the country information; test information is set aside for me. I suddenly fell into a deep valley from the peak --- not a cloud in the Wushan.
In fact, when the "Cultural Revolution" has been quietly pressing over, Beijing, Shanghai and other big cities full of long sandy floor, and only a remote place like ours is far beyond the reach of the water tower.
I thus understand a truth, the fate of individual fate of the country suffered a cold, wet background, but it is a leaf light wooden boat, which sank in an instant or Andu is the other side of the rain the wind shots call the shots call the shots also fail to get it.
"Do not dream vaguely death curse Sichuan, hometown thirty years ago."
Three years later, wrapped in paper that history has long been our youth ebb away into a nightmare can not be undone. 1998 I came to the provincial capital Hohhot for work, when I suddenly thought of Inner Mongolia College of Art in a corner of the city, the heart was a red-hot iron as the "squeak" to pressure a bit less pain. So I left to do things, rushed to the car once in my dream place across the lightning.
A dress, and appearance are soil Baji's rural women, stood in the literature that bears profound artistic attainments of higher learning before.
Looked up and saw the head on the "Inner Mongolia College of Art," that those words, she had cried like rain!
In and out of many teachers and students talking, and she impulses, and she wanted to call them: I have ... ... you know what? I have had the college obtain!
Who does not know this peasant woman, her legs are still numb stop standing like a fool, when she finds that: standing here, is life.
Ming finally realized she should go in a walk, because this life can not come again.
Ring in class, a gentle man looks out from the office building.
She ran headfirst: What ... ... Thirty years ago, here there was a teacher surnamed Chen Yulin County to have proctored exam to do ... ...
Thirty years ago? That should be ... ... the last admission before the Cultural Revolution, right? I was not admitted into the school.
That is, the 1966's.
Sixty-six exams aside, I heard the batch of students enrolled are outstanding.
He sighed away, she chased the past.
I want to ask! Chen who ... ...
He died six years ago, is a death sentence --- I'm sorry, I'm going to the lecture.
He is gone, she looked at his back stood woodenly ... ...
I put "Shuganwan" into a particle, with water to give the stomach, to tell the experience of these years to listen to Zhang. He was silent for a long time before that: crop of talent was so wasted, the more a pity ... ... But Chen Ping, you do not waste time, so many years has been adhering to continue writing to learn, enough.
Enough, enough of what? Enough years, enough is enough to return his life?
"Return" is empty, because life is a dream, wake ended, Mr. Soul has already paid to the cold wind, the athletic, drifting cold.
Sailed the seven seas?
Imagine the scene without the prior, or just a though time will not be erased, but it has been experiencing the feeling of change? Very far shore. I found Zhang's face a bit surprised: "Chen Ping, we meet ... ... is that so?"
So, Which is it? I walked all the way lax moments of tension and excitement, so the history of the beginning of a paragraph from the front.
After that, in my vegetables, selling alcohol and tobacco, in the middle of the booth opened, Zhang used to go Talk to me, but he is subject only to lock in my student days, said he had kept my notes in class with a later students to see; said he was particularly appreciative of my time to writing, pictures and music talent. Only prudent to ask a question only occasionally:
Chen Ping, the sale also ... ... you can maintain life, right?
He looked and voices are very cautious, afraid of what knocked over.
My last sale, open upstairs in the stadium, "if it" --- public telephone room. Zhang now over seventy, and one day he Tuimenzoujin years, with a smile on his face in his hand Erhu: Chen Ping, the business of busy right now you sing a "Let us double Dangqi paste "it.
My heart "bang" to leap.
Sixth grade, I was under the guidance of Zhang has been involved in a school where the "variety show" is a production team for several folks to watch the box-office scale, is a cotton ball dipped in kerosene and burning out the light of the choreography design. In this conference, I jumped a solo dance "Let us double Dangqi pulp", so called by my own choreography, Zhang erhu for me accompaniment. The clothing is required for Zhang broken bike riding his bike ran Shiji Li Road, for me to take back a black with gold trim Taozai Mongolian dress.
Zhang life has taught countless students he taught me only a year, but seem to remember many things that occur that year.
If my writing, painting and music really have so little talent, then this talent Zhang whipping me in the year, like the camel seems to grow a lot of water sprouts.
With this year's "Fu Miao encourage" the bottom, after I went into junior high school, though often bring disaster to the family of the economic distress, it will often be "Zhaopo Jia" This kind of "Chu" by the interference, and the final reading After that summer, after two days of certainty of the future "son", but I like this talent is still known for bean sprouts. I taught myself music notation, go to room East Rasi playing musical instruments, and often self-study course by the time furtively painting the picture that, while writing levels improved a lot.
The eve of graduation, Inner Mongolia Autonomous Institute of the Arts for the whole recruitment, total number enrolled 25. It is said that whenever you get into this college, students can get a monthly living allowance of eight dollars, and artistic career is very terrible.
At that time our village is still in the labor force fell in the attendance bonus, people will see eye to open a dollar. Therefore, the amount of eight dollars, in my opinion not enough astronomical geography.
I went to the examination, the examination subjects are: writing, drawing and music, which compared three are my strengths. If the test is that physics and chemistry, I was all over.
Then I heard that they have been admitted to the college news, college art teacher came to our school invigilator Chen, himself told the principals.
In all the students fill in their studies seriously volunteer table, I roll back the blanket to school children complacent, I want to go home and waiting for the offer. Then it, then I'll go to Inner Mongolia College of Art Postgraduate it!
Bloodshed's Ji Maoxin also came two: the Cultural Revolution to the country information; test information is set aside for me. I suddenly fell into a deep valley from the peak --- not a cloud in the Wushan.
In fact, when the "Cultural Revolution" has been quietly pressing over, Beijing, Shanghai and other big cities full of long sandy floor, and only a remote place like ours is far beyond the reach of the water tower.
I thus understand a truth, the fate of individual fate of the country suffered a cold, wet background, but it is a leaf light wooden boat, which sank in an instant or Andu is the other side of the rain the wind shots call the shots call the shots also fail to get it.
"Do not dream vaguely death curse Sichuan, hometown thirty years ago."
Three years later, wrapped in paper that history has long been our youth ebb away into a nightmare can not be undone. 1998 I came to the provincial capital Hohhot for work, when I suddenly thought of Inner Mongolia College of Art in a corner of the city, the heart was a red-hot iron as the "squeak" to pressure a bit less pain. So I left to do things, rushed to the car once in my dream place across the lightning.
A dress, and appearance are soil Baji's rural women, stood in the literature that bears profound artistic attainments of higher learning before.
Looked up and saw the head on the "Inner Mongolia College of Art," that those words, she had cried like rain!
In and out of many teachers and students talking, and she impulses, and she wanted to call them: I have ... ... you know what? I have had the college obtain!
Who does not know this peasant woman, her legs are still numb stop standing like a fool, when she finds that: standing here, is life.
Ming finally realized she should go in a walk, because this life can not come again.
Ring in class, a gentle man looks out from the office building.
She ran headfirst: What ... ... Thirty years ago, here there was a teacher surnamed Chen Yulin County to have proctored exam to do ... ...
Thirty years ago? That should be ... ... the last admission before the Cultural Revolution, right? I was not admitted into the school.
That is, the 1966's.
Sixty-six exams aside, I heard the batch of students enrolled are outstanding.
He sighed away, she chased the past.
I want to ask! Chen who ... ...
He died six years ago, is a death sentence --- I'm sorry, I'm going to the lecture.
He is gone, she looked at his back stood woodenly ... ...
I put "Shuganwan" into a particle, with water to give the stomach, to tell the experience of these years to listen to Zhang. He was silent for a long time before that: crop of talent was so wasted, the more a pity ... ... But Chen Ping, you do not waste time, so many years has been adhering to continue writing to learn, enough.
Enough, enough of what? Enough years, enough is enough to return his life?
"Return" is empty, because life is a dream, wake ended, Mr. Soul has already paid to the cold wind, the athletic, drifting cold.
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